Truth... or false !?

**This will definitely will be a long and bored one. And who those who might concern, just pm or sms me if you think I should not post this, although I din't post up your name...**

  Recently saw a post from my fren, and realize she was having a not very happy life now. Well, i might can understand what she feels. Try and think of her situation. For me, although sometimes I say I don't mind, just let it be, i will not put too many hope into it again... and etc. But believe it or not, my heart, some part of it, still hoping that what I wish will come true. Is really annoying when you get alone while others were so happy, going out together, and they always promised you with something but never run into it. I felt quite "lonely" when reading the post, honestly I hope she can manage to cope with it. Some people might say add oil, you can do it... but we are not the ones who feel it, so does she or he really need that? I post a comment on her post, but not even a single minute after that, i found out her second post posting a thanks to her boyfren, appreciate him how he accompany her through phone and etc..

  I faster delete the comment that i just posted. Not because of anything special [have to clarify since all my fren was crazy, some will say i like this girl, some will say i am a light bulb or etc... but honestly, treat you as fren...], but because I know her boyfren can help her for sue, plus i am emo at that particular moments, so better dun post a wrong thing. But i did a stupid move again, haha... i purposely sms her on the next day while her lunch time [guessing her lunch time...] and hope the few sms can help her pass through, since lunch time is the only time a worker can freely sms without scolded by big boss, lol. Well, what i want to clarify here is, look this situation in a different perspective, treat it as something which will make you feel better, that kind of sad feeling i almost have once a month is not something good... find some people who can trust and chat with them. Friends is always there when you ever need help...

  As I mentioned above, fren always there when you need them. Now I am gonna post something which seems conflict with what i state. Yesterday my fren having a video call with my another group of frens, and from there can felt they are happy now. So my fren keep on saying how wonderful it is if I was the one with them now. What come into my mind that particular moment is:"The Law Of IF". People must always satisfied with what you have, no matter good or bad in order to make life simple and having a more happy life. Besides, good or bad can exchange quite fast if you manage to view it from other perspectives. Below is one example for the law which i think by myself:

You wake up in the morning, realize you were late to work. So you faster go prepare everything, but your heart keep telling yourself:"If i didn't watch movie till so late yesterday, i might even not going to rush like hell just like what am i doing now". Finally you done with it, you rush to office and you might scolded by boss, or you arrive at time but not very comfort since you sweats a lot. But did you ever think back, what will happened if you wake up early in that morning, but you will be the one in the car accident which you saw when you rushing to office just now. Life might not be as so "ngam ngam" as i said, and I am not telling you to forget what have you done mistake and find an excuse for it. Besides learning from what have you done wrong, think from others way to make you happy and more satisfied. Time passed cannot be earn back, so learn the lesson and use it on the future but not always lock yourself into it. "If" might sounds good in your mind but when in real time, will it go as smooth as what you think?

  Another thing i want to mention. Call your family, your beloved one when ever you think of them, at least not once amonth to indicate you are caring of them. Life does not have so many 10 years as you wish, don't regret something when you come to it and use "if", as i mentioned "if" is not that "if" as you wish, think about it before you critique my post. Maybe I wrong all, but definitely, i am very sure there is sure something you might learn from it.

  So emo now, and that's why a long post here. Just call me or inform me if you think this post already "hit" your privacy... and a very good morning to all of you. Ohaiyou Gozaimasu...

Mind

  Today was a day, Saturday but not a very normal day for me. As usual wake up in the morning, shower, boil water and etc, preparing for another training day. My site manager sit on my bed while I was having a relaxing shower, cause he want to use the bathroom too. I didn't realize that when I open the door, then I suddenly realize a black shadow sitting on my bed, staring at me. His face was too dark [0630 in the morning], but there is some light "shine" around his body shape [perimeter in math]. So I was shocked, but when he tell my others two friends, they all laugh at me. Oh my god...

  Nothing special since than, till the time we are going back home from work, me and my friend was assigned to take some pictures from ADWB. Now i swear I didn't see any notice at the entering, and all the workers inside there was wearing safety shoes. So we go inside, take pictures. Suddenly when we want to go out, a main-con fatty sh*t ***** guy stand at the entrence, shouting at us:"KELUAR, TAK NAMPAR ORANG SUDAH COVER DENGAN SELIMUT KE?" So my friend and I was shocked, and we faster go out. My friend was a veyr nice guy, before he leaving, he turn around and say:"Bang, sorry ya, kami tak tau tak boleh pakai kasut masuk...", but the fatty **** ***** never accpet it, and say:"KELUAR, JANGAN BAGI SAYA TENGOK MUKA KAU ORANG LAGI!"

  Now the thing I want to mention here is I am not angry or sad cause scolded, but the attitude of that fellow:

1. You always complain those sub-con never mention black and white to you, but in case all of them got. Now did you mention black and white, telling NO SHOE ALLOWED?
2. We already say sorry to you, you just wont try to accept it. At least just calm down and advise us, that i can accept. You should not turn up your volumn and continue shouting. This not make us shame, but make yourself shame, what a barbarian.
3. The most important thing is, it seems like he just scold person from our company...
   

  As a conclusion, I wish to mention again, human are human. I am human, you are human, they are human as well. Even though not human, but still a life beings. Threat others as you wish how others threat you. One more thing to clarify, I know I am easy get bullied, but do you ever think that I am really get bullied or I purposely get bullied? Don't think a person like me will be in so good mood and let you all bully all the time.

Post

  Title for today was post, so people who know me well will basically know that my post today will be very rojak post, mix all my feeling inside a single piece of post, how selling fish am i. For someone who does not like to read rojak ppost, you might skip it.

  As usual, i think too much again. Today while dinner I suddenly think of so many thing, thing that have been past and thing that I think too much. People nowadays always think a lot, can say their curiousity is getting worst and worst. A person say he or she miss you due to long time no see, but you will think that he or she just say that to comfort you, or just say that for fun, as he got nothing to do, or even worst, he or she miss you because without you, no people can let them fool around.

  Now, this few days I keep on repeating a same move, but i think no people will realize it unless he got nothing to do and steer at me for 24 hours. I keep on peep at my phone, hoping some one will call me no matter what thing he or she want to ask me. Already been here for bout 3 weeks or even one months, can't say so miss my family and fren, but just lonely. Everyday, many people will call my friend, but i was sitting there doing nothing and kinda jealous, why so many people will waste credit to blow water with them, but i am lonely there, smiling at them when they turn to look at me, with their phone besides their ear.

  Last thing before i end my things, i am ok with what ever world give me, but this does not mean i am ok with all those stupid jokes in every single second. I believe myself is to bring hapiness to people, but not as a fooling tools for you all.