All of you know when you stay outside, you forced to eat and pack food everyday unless your rent house got tools or gadgets which allow you to cook at home. This is what happened to me. My rent house lack of many things so i need to eat down there or pack food from shop everyday. I know there is variety of foods down there but I already stay there for almost 1 year, almost all the food i ate before. So sometime when you see I stand still in the middle of the road, most probably i am thinking of what should i eat later. This get worst when i went home to "hometown". I know i should say like that cause my mom really busy of something, but sometimes she will say why not you go pack food (can i called it as pack food, somebody please leave down a comment...what i wanna say is "da bao"). I already get bored of food out there but never mind cause i know she really has no time to prepare it. But after few more years? What will happened if this continue?
The paragraph above might make you think that sometimes i hate to go back. Honestly, i admit it but not because of the food for sure. Some others reason like I totally cannot study at home cause of some stupid reason, my bro and sis will create a "wonderful" and "quiet" environment for study and the one that i most mad about is someone smoke. I really hate that cause i go back is to rest not to make my health get worst. I dun like to say it out anymore since what i say is useless and he just won't listen. So what for i say it out again? To qurrel with him again? No way i will do that and make my own heart pain again. He will not smoke outside there but inside when i wanna eat, study, watch tv or what ever thing.
Ok, talk others cause later you will say i rather stay outside than at home which is quite true for some of the time but not always. My friend ask me to help him in his assignment or project thing due to the reason that I am studying 3E which is stand for Electrical and Electronic Engineering. I really feel sorry to say that although he told me not to say sorry everytime. I realize that even i study 3E, i cannot even help him just like my another friend who study the same course. Sometimes when i see he come back late, then wake up the next day as a "panda", i feel sad and sorry for him. Why i cannot help him? I need to state that I am not a GAY but it just as a friend, i cannot help him although the thing he need is in my field. Feel sad about it. I also scare he will get mad or angry cause everytime i say:"Yes, i will help you later on." but end up can't help him in anything. Honestly i did try my best to do it but i really cannot. Sometimes i even doubt about myself, why i study 3E for?
See an anime before which i like it very very much. It state that "Whenever you try to get a thing, you must pay something to trade, this is called Equivalent trade" everytime in the OP. Sometimes i feel sad when see how the brothers suffer in order to reach their goal. But at the last few chapter, i realize that what Lyla or Dante said is true. In reality, equivalent trade won't happened. Maybe sometime you can feel like you pay many efforts on something but end up you get nothing. Soon or later, i realize that equivalent trade still there although you cannot see the effect. Sometimes it will pay you another thing due to your hard effort but you cannot see or realize it that you already got it. The anime that i said is "Full Metal Alchemist".
Full Metal Alchemist
**Don't know where i get this already, just don't sue me because never give credit**
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