Mind

  Today was a day, Saturday but not a very normal day for me. As usual wake up in the morning, shower, boil water and etc, preparing for another training day. My site manager sit on my bed while I was having a relaxing shower, cause he want to use the bathroom too. I didn't realize that when I open the door, then I suddenly realize a black shadow sitting on my bed, staring at me. His face was too dark [0630 in the morning], but there is some light "shine" around his body shape [perimeter in math]. So I was shocked, but when he tell my others two friends, they all laugh at me. Oh my god...

  Nothing special since than, till the time we are going back home from work, me and my friend was assigned to take some pictures from ADWB. Now i swear I didn't see any notice at the entering, and all the workers inside there was wearing safety shoes. So we go inside, take pictures. Suddenly when we want to go out, a main-con fatty sh*t ***** guy stand at the entrence, shouting at us:"KELUAR, TAK NAMPAR ORANG SUDAH COVER DENGAN SELIMUT KE?" So my friend and I was shocked, and we faster go out. My friend was a veyr nice guy, before he leaving, he turn around and say:"Bang, sorry ya, kami tak tau tak boleh pakai kasut masuk...", but the fatty **** ***** never accpet it, and say:"KELUAR, JANGAN BAGI SAYA TENGOK MUKA KAU ORANG LAGI!"

  Now the thing I want to mention here is I am not angry or sad cause scolded, but the attitude of that fellow:

1. You always complain those sub-con never mention black and white to you, but in case all of them got. Now did you mention black and white, telling NO SHOE ALLOWED?
2. We already say sorry to you, you just wont try to accept it. At least just calm down and advise us, that i can accept. You should not turn up your volumn and continue shouting. This not make us shame, but make yourself shame, what a barbarian.
3. The most important thing is, it seems like he just scold person from our company...
   

  As a conclusion, I wish to mention again, human are human. I am human, you are human, they are human as well. Even though not human, but still a life beings. Threat others as you wish how others threat you. One more thing to clarify, I know I am easy get bullied, but do you ever think that I am really get bullied or I purposely get bullied? Don't think a person like me will be in so good mood and let you all bully all the time.

Few days of intern

5th october 2010

  Today woon hoon come and fetch us. Reach there kinda early, but still go up and pretend busy. Early in the morning asked by Steven Ng to clean stuff in the white house. That place was nice. Previously stayed by those korean people, and they leave a lot of thing after move. We assigned to clean those things up, and i guess the thing will become my company's staff's belonging if they want to.[Who knows they will take?]

  Then print something from the net. One manual is 500++ pages, really dono how to describe my feeling. Then have a dinner with jack Chang. He was so so ... Dono how to explain. Ms lim ask is there any cooking facilities in JB, some of us went there before say NO,omg...

  After that, asked by a lady to move thing. Really wanna kill the company already. Ask so many of us go move a 150++ kg thing [so many people also hard to move, can imagine the weight of it.] Somemore the guard show off like he is the manager or CEO, keep on insulting us. Wait and see, if you continue like this, threat us like a low cost labor, I will not let you all go that easy, trust me...

  Then Mr.Tan assigned us some marking and research job. It is about finding the magnetic door and card reader door from some layout. In the middle, i accidentally ask who smoking [is Mr.Tan smoking], i personally think i dint make him angry that much, but who knows,some people might so care even if a little bit [like me maybe]. Tomorrow going to sit bus go JB, which i hate.Why cant you all organized nicely? Want us to go but threat us like that. I cant be patient all the time. I am human not god...

6th october 2010
  Early in the morning sit cab go Wangsa Maju LRT station. Sit LRT to Masjid Jamek and change into Bukit Jalil. Meet with Ping to get his Wiggy. Sit Transtar bus to go Johor. Bus ticket write start at 0930, end up start at 1030. What a nice trip to sleep along the way. Finally reach Johor-Taman Jaya at 1430. Digistar worker, Nadmin come and fetch us.

  Reach cabin. Ah heng, was totally different from my imagination. All the people here were friendly and willing to help. First day we just introduce ourself and start doing some Sample board stff, about the wires sample. Of cause, before that, wewas brought to the so called hostel. Not very clean as what i imagine, and we haven have our lunch.

  After that follow Nadmin back home. Clean the house twice before waiting for Jacho. Finally they are back and it seems Ah Heng is not in a quite good mood. So we just write our daily report before waiting for him to ask us dinner. Dinner at 228 restaurant. Then he kindly brought us go to carefour for our daily stuff. Back to home continue cleaning the stuff before sleep.

  What is my expectation during the next 2.5 month?

7th october 2010

  Wake up at 0615, prepare my self for the first day in Johor, assume la. Ah heng finally woke up and we go to office together. Sweap the floor, clean the office and arrange all the document nicely. After that move the Color Dome Camera to the contenna. Next, we get a catalogue and modify the Sample board. Arrange according to the book, and print out the edited version of catalogue.

  Next was the photo taking session. First go to 1st and 2nd class of Hospital Permai. Taking picture to make sure Digistar won't sue by the main company due to late summision.
    Window to prevent stealing
    Ceiling to make a basement for alarm installation
    Nurse center to hold a unique room for safety purpose

  Next go back cabin, edit the photo name, typing content page and front page for catalogue. Heng was in a meeting, this has cause us fail lunch at 2pm. But meeting is more important, so we ask him to take his time, slowly make perfect.

  Finally, we went back cabin, and check the flowpan of Hospital Permai, assigned by Khairul. We have learnt how to see the number of door needed in a side and check the correctness of a plan.

8th october 2010

  Did nothing today but finish some simple job. Reach cabin as usual, throw rubbish plus sweap the floor once a while. Was assignned by Heng to do method statement. Since it is an engineering field, dun dare to simply do, so always refer to jacho. Before lunch, we finally finish it, but found out it was not wat Heng needed.

  Edit the method statement into single method statement. Then do a linking router to comm room job. It was not that easy as i thought since every way i found was more than 80 meters, which i think propably will affect the effectiveness of the network system for Hosp. Permai

9th october 2010

  Today early in the morning waiting Heng to wake up, cause want to ask him is it he want the water. Then went to Cabin around the same time again, continue sweaping floor and edit the linking router part. Around 915, i assume is Jack call Heng, ask us no need to do linking part anymore, what the world, should I say Nice or WTW?

  So Heng ask me to calculate based on the Autocad LT drawing. I finally found out how to calculate distance in the software, so this make things simple and i can double check as fast as I can. After that, I also assigned by Heng to calculate the distance for the fibre optics.

Intern @ 1

  Today was my first day working,although it is just an internship program, but since yesterday night I can't sleep well. Done a funny thing again, wake up early in the morning just to make sure my housemate can wake up in time. Then waiting for my car pool system till 0820 only start moving... Really don't know how to describe.Ampang is a very jam area, yet you all dare to move slowly, but I cant blam any of you, since i am just the pessenger, no right to ask or ordering right?

  Luckily we all arrive sharp at 0850, but my heart almost stop functioning at that particular moment.Thought all will be alright, till the HR officer proudly tell us, three of us have been selected to follow the program in Johor. Few reasons i hope i won't be the lucky person, because i am a home baby, my noob car is about to start and etc. There is something which make me want to go also, obviously go there can learn more,more practical job and more independent live and etc.

  The officer announce the name and I was the 4th name called. 4 will be the choosen one, three from the choosen one have to go.I am the lucky one, or am I the poor guy? Company ask me to go Johor, stay at their hostel, and work for everyday, Monday till Saturday, with the extra allowance RM300. Really omg this time.

  One thing i learn from today's working, the boss will never appreciate you when you done your work and sitting down there, enjoying your air cond. He or she will rather see you doing something although the thing you are doing you done slowly, or you pretend to do something. So almost everyone today, just pretend they are all busy, including me as well. Of cause at the same time I was thinking should I reject the task assigned or just leave it.

  Honestly, the other two was friend of mine.I am ok to stay with them, maybe I think too much again, but will they prefer to choose others rather than I, going to stay with them. Hope everything will be alright, really hope so. Since the company say all thing is PNC [which i think should be refer to private and confidential], so there will be seldom pictures uploaded regarding my work, but not my hostel. Will take a picture with my phone if i am too free to do that.

  What I learn to do today is how to photocopy. It seems easy, and it really easy,but a lot of knowledge behind it. Like how frequently u need to use side paper, how frequently you will have to add paper again, how to fix the machine from paper jam and etc. Then I also have been told to do some paper searching work, which i personally think can learn something also, but maybe not that much. Thats all for the first day in my intern, maybe this is the only, since when i get to JB, there will no more internet access for me...I must be tough, i must be confidence...I know i can.

Lesson from Bufday...

  Today was my fren's bufday. This is the first time ever i made my decision to go someone's party. This is also the reason why i spend my whole day yesterday just to think what should I buy for her, but luckily this problem solved, is all thanks to my friend, thanks a lot. Doumo Arigatou Gozaimasu.

  Now the bufday party was ok... just that i tot all should be my same age people in that party. This is the party I first time enter, where 3 generations involve. What a wonderful experience, although i kinda nervous, sit together with elder and dono want to give wat reaction. Luckily my fren go with me.

  The thing that I learn from today experience is ... I dono what is the suitable words to use. One of my fren, the one help me to buy present, actually ride motorcycle from Wangsa Maju to PJ. Ya, some of you might think:"che, near near nia ma......", but for me it is very not easy to did that. Alone, not so familiar with the road, dare to come and celebrate fren's bufday. The part that make me scare is he dare to ride home at 11.00pm, raining some more. For me, I wont dare to go to bufday party if i am alone. Some more i scare i lost in the city... What should I say is: Marvelous, you did it and u become part of my idol in my life.... Bravo [Honestly not blow water de.... ]

Happy bufday to my fren, and Bravo to my fren as well

Finally, it done...

  Finally, i think you all can guess what am i trying to say... my exam finally finish. Oh yeah, but kinda disappointing to my exam answer. Well, never mind, what passed ald pass, look forward to the new come challenge. A kinda important thing i learn from this time exam is "Way of taigong Studying", lol, sounds so officially. I realize my way of studying is "Forcing but not to force, Stressful but not that stress". One of my friend told me something which i agree, if you know then mean you know, dono no matter how you force yourself also you still dono [with the criterion you have put effort into it when u study, only if that when you still dono can consider "dono"]. Confusing? Yup, kinda..

  Today after exam found out my calculator missing some where, oh my god. Haiz, why so careless? Went for another sing K session, this time meet with some course-mates, friends and a lecturer. Wow, fantastic is it? Able to sing K with your lecturer, which mean lesser gap btw a student and a tutor. Not like in some place written:"Student are prohibited from entering", what for set a huge gap? You are lecturer or tutor, you sure got something more "geng" than us, but wat written make me feel that:"You are god, we are not"... frustrating!!

  No picture for today post, cuz dun have lo. Before end my thing, list out something i wish to do in this next few months [internship time]

• Finish my noob car project, successfully [can move can d..lol]
• Finish my coding competition which i enter cuz wanna get a free T-Shirt
• Nihon-go wo benkyou shimasu [hope some of my friend can join vf me, learn together]
• Learn to release stress in the following three months
• maybe, just maybe, manage to create a simple RPG [maybe mean 1% nia]
• etc... cant think of now
  

FIFA

  Ok, I know is a bit weird to see I, old man actually post a post which is totally not related to me. Since when I start to enjoying myself in sport? If you know me well you will know this won't happened at all. Yesterday go watch FIFA Final due to a very stupid reason which is .... dun wanna tell you.

  Went down there, sit still and learn a lot of thing besides learn how to shout "GOAL". First of all, damn many people, match start at 230am you will see 130 ald pack vf many sardin. Next is the people sitting around me. One geng is totemo funny, they "steal" the chair from next table and keep on say:" faster, no ppl will realise it... faster"... hey, you tot ppl around you all blind is it? This group of people is very bad. They smoke some weird smell smoke, besides that keep on ordering food and drinks in a nice manner. They ask the indian fellow come and order food, when about to done, they stop the indian fellow and add some more food. Then when food passing by, not theirs, they will shout like hell. So the fellow have no choice, have to take the food to their place. Then what happened? The geng will say :" just now ald say is fried rice not noodles." Hey, you all are the one shout like the food is urs and want the food now, now you blame people.

  Fine, when food served, they say :" tot i say dun wan vege in my rice"... this make the indian kinda blur and ask some senior worker to come. Now guess what, they dint dare to voice out anything.... The most evil thing is after 90min, they just leave without pay.

  Moral value here is, dun treat people as a fool. You need people to respect you also, but this can't be happened if you make ur self looks like an idiot. I know i have no right to say u all like idiot, but pls behave... some more say those player play like a "pondan". WTH, if you are damn pro ald playing the match now in Afrika, wat for sitting there and act like you are pro?

  Second thing is, the referee. How to spell? Pls be honest with what are you doing and be responsible. Dun simply :"beep, yellow card". Open you eyes bigger. Maybe I am blur in the game since is my first time watching, but u can clearly see some of them is really funny de lo, not their fault u give yellow card, and "pity" those who lie down on floor because some ppl accidentally "kick" their leg... arghhh, thats why i dun like to see this kind of match.

Let's conclude

  This two weeks holidays gonna end very soon, some happy with it some say not enough. What is in my mind now? Did i feel happy, satisfied? Or i feel not enough? Let's conclude what i had done in this two weeks...

  First of all, play game. Ya, another Chinese RPG game known as The Twin Heros. I use about 3-4 days to finish it... maybe even less if minus time for sleep, shower, eat and etc. Then, watch tv of cuz. Suddenly feel interest about a HK drama which talking bout treasure.

  The next few days, draw using paint again. This time the only different is i finally try to color it and try to draw hand, eyes and etc. Is hard to draw by using mouse since you can't get a circle although u are actually drawing a circle.

This is so call title pg. The cloud thingy quite hard to draw...

This is call "water ink draw" , lol... aka 水墨画. But too bad i dono how to color...

This is "Xiao Ying", she has a pity fate and...etc. I use the picture from chinese
paladin as a reference.
Back view of "Ming Yue". She also has a pity fate and a lot of curiousity...
Another reference from chinese paladin again.

This is so called sun set view. This is the most funny picture. Less draw but many color...

  I know all of it is weak art work but this is my first try... hope can come out vf own character soon. Besides these drawings is the video making which is a combination of all those picture above.

  Last thing i did on Friday, i ... how to say 裹粽子 in EN? My mum cooks and i bungkus it...lol. No pictures cuz dun wanna let people laugh at me, cuz is not as beautiful as those sold outside.

Think back...

  This morning wake up, kinda emo~ing again. Think back a lot of things since last night. Primary school was kinda blur for me as I also cant remember clearly what had happened. There is a few things that I still can remember clearly. One of them is the homework given make me cant sleep before 12am everyday. Second thing is there was one guy called XXX, who suddenly announce to the whole class that :"He is a bad, dun fren with him...", the "he" and "him" was me. He point at me and announce to the whole class. Strangely, that particular moment I did not argue with him, I just let him continue with his announcement. Then there was one day, something happened and it was just like those story happened in drama. At last how was our friendship? Nah, I just cannot too close with my fren and thus, we most probably never become fren also... maybe this is what i thought.

  Then I remember my secondary life. The memory is more clearer compared to primary life. When in form 2, there was one girl which is the monitor of the class suddenly choose me as the assistant. Will I just be what the teacher ask. Then my life as a monitor begin, start from assistant. Till form 3 i change position become monitor. I am not sure about that but my fren told me that the class teacher purposely ask me go take books from her place so that she can talk to the whole class about me. She talking bout something that.... erm, maybe can make me happy. But due to one reason, i resign from it and end my 2 years services, hahaha.

  Since emoing, so you cannot expect this post will be all talking bout memory and think back, but maybe something still related to memory. Every teenage was happy to hang out with fren, go out maybe take a supper or travel to any places. But this definitely not gonna happened to me. Ya, i know i still go out supper sometimes. From "their" facebook pictures, it clearly shows that they are more knowledgeable than me, more talented than me and etc. I hate reunion because for me, that is a nightmare. First of all, all will have their gang of frens and what they chat about got "point". I know maybe is my fault cuz cannot mix well with them thats why thought that was a nightmare. But is that true? Now i even think back, I can still mix vf them in school but is that just limited to school area, mean after school period i am a totally different guy and cant mix with them at all? For me, reunion is some kind of gathering which to blow water and .... (dono how to express...)

  Different people different thought. Sometimes i say dun care but is that true? I found out myself hardly to express what am I thinking. Ya, I admit that you all can know that i am angry at that moment based on my black face. Sometimes i will just keep on remember those bad memory and then keep those feeling deep in heart so "SHE" can read it... till I totally cannot take it anymore.... That was what my mum ask me to change:

1. Stop keep all those unhappy thing in your heart
2. Stop become a crazy guy who will suddenly become black face
3. Stop become a person that will suddenly open up machine gun and shoot like there was no tomorrow

  Ya, this blog was totally mixed up... clearly show that I am emoing, maybe..

Belief in what i believe and do what i belief....

When you're gone

Another lyric edited by a boring people:

"When you're gone"
Credits given to:
Avril Lavigne

I always needed time to digest
I never thought I'd will do all tut you gave
Every classes I focus that's all I do
And the notes where you gave
Was copied by me
When final coming
I count the steps that I take
Do you see how much I try to score it?
I aim A
The pieces of my heart felt confidence
When in hall
The A I aim to get is missing d
When you're gone
The words I scare to hear that always frighten me and thus
I praying to God
Don't fail me

I never felt this thing before
Everything that you say
Reminds me of it
And the notes you gave
I put on table
But they too much for me
I hate the things inside it
When you flying back
I count the days that I leave
Do you see how much I hate go Kampar?
When you're gone
I keep on telling me I can do it
If I fail
The fees I waste to Kampar is a lot
When you're gone
The things I need to get to avoid get me to Kampar
And make me OK
Signal's notes
We were meant for each other
I keep studying
I know I could
Yeah~~

All I ever wanted was for me to pass
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you bear with me
Yeah~~

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are scare of you
When you're gone
I learnt that tut is damn important
When you're gone
The thing I have been learnt to avoid get me through the same
And make me feel great
Must study~~~

Waiting~~~ when you're gone

  What the hack is inside my mind now? I just wanna type this blog yet i ald delete the whole paragraph for three times... arghhhhhhhhhhh..... my mind was totally blank yet wanna write something out.

  Today can be consider as the third day after finish my finals. The very first day which is thursday, all my housemate ask me back hometown cuz dun wanna see my face (of cuz just joking, they just cannot see my happily smiling face showing that:"My final is the end, urs haven...kekeke...")

  Sometimes i am thinking of a few question:

1. Am i too noob to help ppl?
2. How i make frens?
3. Why my frens need me?
4. Do they need me?
5. Why i am so noob?
6. Why i am wasting my time?
7. Why make thing getting complicated?
8. Why a few pieces of paper can make people gone crazy?
9. What are we studying for?
10. etc... (you wont want me to type out all...)

  But thanks to my fren, i solve some of the Q above, really thx to u...sincerely. Realize that i am getting addicted to facebook? Nah, try and see if i went back hometown will i as active as i am in setapak? No of cuz. At hometown no ppl will come and say:"Hey, wanna supper?" nor "watch movie lo...". So what am i doing in my hometown? Just gaming lo.

  Before i end up my post today (cant consider as a post since, 不知所谓), i finally get my hp mini~~ wohoooo....

This is it but of cuz not this.... but this is it...

KO 4

  Finally have time to take a good nap since week 7 of this sem, as my next paper is on thursday. What am i doing in this whole week was too simple, sleep at morning about 3am, study and try to memorize all the formula, end up no enough time when exam due to 2 hour 4 Q with sub-sub-sub question system.

  Lets talk one by one. Micro was consider ok, since i also forget how sucks am i in the exam d. I remember i was just sitting there, try to do as fast as i can. I remember come out tutorial question and some question from the test. So, basically this exam just hanging 1/4 way.

  Next is my favourite subject, Control system. This is just wonderful. This is the subject i manage to teach people, omg. I aim A or maybe B for this subject. What happened was i shooted by the value of alpha, beta and p. Use almost 1 hour to escape from shooted. End up this question i din't manage to finish it although i have use 1 hour. Then stop by another people call bode plot which i think was another idiot move done by me. What for go and wasting time on those question that seems unfamiliar with me. At the end very dissapointed, the last Q was easy but i dun have time to do it... how sad...

  Next is digital. This time i learn a lesson, answer damn fast without caring too much on how beautiful is my writing and how straight was my table. End up just enough time to do it... Many table (unnecessary de) was drew and arr.......it consider fully utilize my time...

  Today one was the best. Best among the best... This is the first ever subject that i am able to vommit out whole new formula. See how pro am i? It need a lot of formulas and you know i am not good in memorizing unless in something i really like, so rather than wasting time, i create formula. I was very happy cuz i can eventually come out about 10 new formula in that 2 hours...lol. One of the question, i laugh while i was creating the formula....kakaka...

  Hope i can survive in the next paper....hope.....

This is one of the ans that i write and laugh all the time... I know you wanna laugh,
just laugh....but see how "sky soldier" am i at that particular moment?

Wakaranai~

  Finally, my group done the assignment for control system. Is a very nice experience while doing this assignment and personally i think i learnt a lot from this assignment. But the only dissapointed part is i am not there when my group present. I am having gastrik till cannot stand for a short period of time. Thus i finally make a decision to have my lunch first and i ask them not to present till i come back. But it din't happened as we are the last few group who haven present.

  Conclusion, my fren say it can consider success and i think the same way too although i dint contribute much, but this it what i have done in the past few weeks.

  Talk back the sad story thingy that i request in blog and facebook (which does not get any response =.=|||). I recently have a new idea, how bout changing the fighting by using sword and sabre and etc into fighting using music such as drum, piano and etc, like what happened in KO 3 Guo.

  Okok, finish bull*******, now let's take a look to my group hardware.

Seems simple yet use few weeks to do it, almost 1 and half month~~~ Nice?
For the report part, please kindly contact the old man garden~

Just kidding...

  Just kidding, not the title i copied from my friend's blog title, it just happened to be the same as what am i thinking now~ refer video below:

If this happened to be my next game CG or opening video...lame is it?
*Material from 仙剑奇侠传 & 渡尘凡*
*Song from 我的眼泪不为你说谎 by 卓依婷*
*Dont sue me, just learn how to create a short mv...*

Another story from a little old man...

  This few day damn tired, if there is a word which can best describe damn than damn, pls let me know it and i will use it. Assignment all coming in one box(ya, diff describe method) and test come in one car(yet another diff method of describing). This car move in acceleration and this box is damn heavy.

  Is good thing to take in mind that maybe DARK should just come out and try to live in real world for one week, maybe things will get better~~~ who knows? Since DARK is basically better than HE. Did any of you remember i post a blog saying that although a person dun mind you use his thing... did NOT mean that u no need to ask for it. Is ok for me if u use it after asking my permission but NO, you all never ask and use it just like the thing is urs and u simply smash it like a toy? WTW, pls think of my feeling. I am easily get bullied not mean you will easily get rid of that, remember, a silent volcano will be erupt quite soon if the pressure in it cannot maintain anymore~~~

  Now let's hear a story from an old man (is in chinese version.... will consider english version if any kind people would like to help me translate it...). Here goes nothing but a rather silly weak chinese story:

  桃花树下，桃花满天飘。清澈地湖边，一名少年来来回回的徘徊，不停的徘徊。坐在不远处的年轻姑娘看了不禁笑了出来。


  思远哥哥被这么一问，停了下来。不到一会儿，又走了起来。小英看了边摇头边笑说：“思远哥哥的老毛病又犯了。坐下来歇一会儿，要不然等一下又晕倒了，到时可别再指望我与明月姐姐回来救你！”。小英这一句话引起了坐在湖对面那一位女子的注意。只见女子轻轻地用手划过了手上的精工玉琴，弹出一段扣人心意的旋律。之后，思远哥哥还是不停的徘徊，小英的眼珠子便不停的跟随着思远哥哥的身影，直到自己的眼珠快掉出来才回过神。湖对岸的女子看了看，笑了出来。


  小英听了，点点头。明月继续说：“思远哥哥，你就别再转了，要不然待会儿我扶不起两个人。一个呆呆的转，一个笨笨的跟着...” 话还没说完，放在小英身旁大树下的剑突然冒起了烟，一人影冒了出来~ “哇！剑魔老前辈，都跟你说了几次，别突然间冒出来，会吓坏我的~~”小英边说边把手安抚自己的心，好让自己冷静。剑魔笑了一下，眼睛马上化为红色，转过头来对着思远。


  又一段琴声飘来，明月站了起来，慢条斯理的走过小湖中央的石桥，手放在思远的肩膀上，道：“思远哥哥，你看，把老前辈都逼急了。停一下吧！”小英听了连忙插了一口：“对极了，让老老先生去把那一群人万剑穿心，什么事都搞定。没事，没事！” 思远终于停了下来。


  小英道：“就那么简单，你想得过于复杂。”剑魔说：“小姑娘所言极是。思远，别想太多。待老夫使出穿云剑，将那人刺穿，那边什么事也没了。”思远道：“世上一切决非对错那么简单，何况刚才明明就是双方的失误，老前辈你要将对方营地夷为平地，未免有点太过火了吧？算了算了，待我好好想想...” 剑魔听了，气得满脸通红：“真被你给气死，我休养去，免得被你气得投胎不成。”说完后，咻一声又随烟雾散去。小英听了，对明月说：“明月姐姐，算了。我赏花去，免得被这木头人气得满脸出皱纹。”说完便向朵朵鲜花盛开的原地行去。明月坐下来，继续弹着“菩提心静曲”，让思远一个人好好冷静。

  风吹过，树叶桃花开满天。树叶漫漫的飘落在湖面上，造就了朵朵的波纹...桃花树下，少年依然来回不停的旋转；树下女子轻抚手上的琴，弹出阵阵旋律；花田间，小女子一边欣赏盛开的花，一边不时地回头看着少年，脸上挂着无奈的笑容；石头上，剑柄渐渐由红色化淡，进入平静的一刻；天底下，事事非所愿，事事非对错那么简单...


**以上的载图，全来自新仙剑奇侠传游戏，经由本人改了少许...

Ear~~~

  Ear, my ear finally get treatment today. Last week my father successful make an appointment for me but until that day, the nurse call and say:"Sorry, today doctor not in, shop close!" WTW~~~ So this week i am there again with the shop opening and waiting for me to step inside.

  Nobody home~~~ avril's song. No people inside the clinic since the doctor just come. I went inside the room and the doctor ask many thing. All question answered by my father. Not that i am too depend on my father, is just that before i answer, he already answer. The doctor ask me to sit in front of a 29'' tv and he put in something into my ear. It was something like a tiny camera and i can see what is inside my ear CLEARLY through the tv~ very horrible, terrible and vegetable...

  He start to use a pipe thing to suck out all the wax and so called fungus (actually no fungus, just my wax too hard till block my hearing). Then, it cost me 150?! Ok, quite cheap compare to 200++ which i heard from the first doctor which is located in setapak~~~

  Doctor ask me not to use cotton b??? (dono what is it but it sounds like cotton "bub", in chinese i know la~~~ mian hua bang). Hmmm, will i manage to control myself? hope i can do it~~~ wish me good luck or not my RM150++ will fly away again~~~

Wax blocking my hearing on 1.

** I check d, is cotton swab**

Rojak~

  When ever i think about something mixed, i think of rojak~ Why? cuz you will always heard bahasa rojak, this rojak that rojak but all pointing a same characteristic- that particular thingy is mixed up. Few thingy happened around me again this few days, and of cuz there is something heppened, if not what for i am here? Old man talk is it? Sure, cuz i am gredgrandfather xiao yao.

  Japanese class held like normal but this time i have to travel back with Mr.Loy as he promise to send me back, arigatou gozaimasu for your kindness towards an old man like me. He like to share thing with student and we talk bout buddha and some event of "The End" togather in the car for more than 20 min~~~ i forget to tell him that i haven eat, but nevermind, happy to have a little chat~ Celebrate birthday with a fren that night and we dint buy cake (due to the law of new teenage, nowadays cake is too normal...) We order many kind of roti canai and ask the worker to put them up like a cake and this is the cake. Of cuz my fren now feel wanna vommit when see roti canai~~

  Another lab on control system and the same thing happened again. You will always heard this word from someone, walking around like investigating the lab session - student who never do anything which is like me. They (not me!) will say:"Now simply do first, later i go get the result from XXX then we can summit d." or "Result not the same la, nevermind! COntinue it and i will get the result from fren later." See the problems here? All doing lab not because of lab.

  Getting tired and tired. Control assignment still going on and my group has a few very "geng" people who can think of wat to do next and etc. Of cuz thta person not me. I am consider happy if i can help them in anything. CD basically can move ald and i am sure it is DAMN stable....?! Better dun so sure as later scare thing will end up getting a zero mark~

  My eyes cannot hold on anymore, as i wish i could have a sleep, a deep nice and sweet sleep. But when ever i close up my eyes, i think bout color and HW, so i have to open my eyes but cant do a thing as my mind ald in sleep mode. Hope i can clear up my mind and have a nice sleep.

  Another fren birthday and this time no more roti canai, but bread. That roti canai guy never thought we will celebrate with him again and thought his cake was really roti canai. SInce that day is another fren birthday (called him as B), we told A(roti canai guy) to celebrate with him. Thus he think the cake was for B. Of cuz we tell B we celebrate for A, so he thought he dun have cake at that night, and my fren laugh at him say he feel sad now cuz the name on the cake was not him. When we about to leave, another cake come out for B...haha, he so surprize?! Dono, but sincerely, wish you all have a very nice future and nice life~~~

  No picture today as i am lazy, but come out with a very weak poem again(silly poem again):

千年等待一场空，
梦醒时分丝未尽；
看似落花无情物，
心坎泪霜心相知；

悬崖殉身泪未干，
回头仰望丝空尽；
看似地久天长梦，
莫道随风魂飘散。

Maze

  Maze, i think every people know wat is that. Even a small child know it, those funny little picture with many many lines and ask you to use pencil to bring the frog or something like that to the pond-one of the example of maze. Maze can appear everywhere even in your tiny little heart.

  Recently i found out i am in a big maze, trying to find a way out. I find it, and heading towards it, but the exit become more far, more far and "pop", dissapear in front of me again. I thought it will be ok, just go and find the exit again, but things get worst. When ever the exit move one step backward, there will be another wall pop out in front me, blocking me to go further. Using a hammer smash down the wall, it reappear. Next, some "npc" will pop out and ask you to follow them.

  You are damn lucky if you manage to follow a true "npc", but when you follow a fake one, you might just need to crying alone and start searching the way out once more. No one will accompany me along the way, imagine the wall both sides of you getting nearer and nearer to you, and you have to hold the breath in order to move on. Sometimes you will find youself go to a nicer place, with a pond, chair and etc waiting for you, relaxing.

  Times will continue flow and without my notice, the exit where i came out from will moving nearer nearer to you, and the pond getting smaller and smaller and at last, dissapear.

  A shiny light appear a few times in fornt of me indicating that was the exit, but personally i am too scare to move in front, wat will happened if i bury myself inside this maze and cant come out forever?

  I need your help again GREY and DARK. SHE, will you come out for a while? Just tonight?

Maze~

Happy Chinese New Year

  Happy Chinese New Year. This Year Chinese New Year falls on 14th Febuary which is also Valentine Day. Compare to Ang Pow, I realize all my beloved coursemates like to receive chocolate more than anything else, even ang pow. How I Know? Well, clearly see that all my coursemate discussing why they din't receive chocalate? Where to buy chocalate and etc, all related to chocalate but not ang pow and not even tutorial(that time was a tutorial class...even when tutor ask them, they keep saying:"Why I dun have chocalate?! I want chocalate!") OMG~~~

  Some of my fren even go back to hometown more early than others. Why? Cause you will see some sms when you on phone in the early morning and the sms sounds like:"Help me sign later. In airport now!" and I receive this early in the 6.30am. Some even powerful! "I reach my home d!" WTW, I am still here study with a heavy sleep mood and some of them sleeping in the nice room.

  Now since New year is near, I post paid RM110 for ang pow. Nah, me not marry yet but I pay to Doctor?! The story is like this: This few days actually I hardly hear what you all say as my ear pain and I can only hear with one ear. Thus i decided to visit doctor and tala, he say too many wax? How to spell? Then after suck out, he say got fungus? Arghhhhhh, my ears too dirty is it? Wrong! Is the wax too hard for my case and I cant even clear it with my own. Thats why...

  My tears come out when he trying to pull out those dirty thingy. Really painful and you wont understand the feeling... Then when i go take medicine, the chinese nurse say:"Thanks, RM 110 please." WTW, I know CNY coming but you no need charge so much! Some more my ear is pain after the treatment! Watever, just till here for this time...Lastly:

Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine Day~

Hmmm...

  Is been a very long time since my last post... is it? Wat ever since I dint notice bout it....let the time flow with the wind..... sounds like i am wasting it !! This holiday I am doing nothing... actually a lot too. I eat, sleep, rest, watch, play game and etc. Very busy life~ kekeke.

  I play an old RPG game and the story line is quite ok. Now i know why the tiny characteristic will contribute to the success of a game. Mark down that for my next game creation. Hehe.

  Between, I finally open an account for FB. WTW, what happened to me, why i opened it~ is because of something that make me open it. Wanna know what is that? Find me and I might let you know. (Who cares, open ald so weird meh? Hay yo~~~)

Who can see what am I trying to draw?

Luan

  Holiday already here and i'm still the same, doing nothing in da house...eat, sleep,play games and of cuz, some benkyou shimasu. Went down to Johor Bahru to visit my aunt. Her house is nice and big for sure. Realize one thing, some cousin will have more topic to talk with you while others just nothing to talk with you. Initially I thought finally can have a holiday's "holiday", but things turn into another side again. Hate those who turn this holiday become like that, but not you, aunt.

  When wanna come back that time, suddenly father say i have a lost aunt who never meet for almost 30 years? Wow, it was like those in the Hong Kong drama. So we went to dono where and start to search for her. There was a story about her.... but who knows is it true or false? Finally with a help from the "Tauke So" from the motorcycle shop, we manage to find her and she was like surprize. But too bad there was not those sad, crying scene like wat normally happened in drama. But i wonder... something wrong or I think too much again?

  Remember back a few thing this few days. Remember 7 idiot each put a finger on the keyboard just to play Mania aka O2Jam. That time was really happy for me at least. Then think back those art time in primary school, have those sad and happy moment and etc... What ever, this few days my feeling totally mixed up and thats why my title called "LUAN"...

Luan