Double Kill

  These few days keep on thinking am I taking a wrong subject? Wat is the purpose of exam? Is it exam really can prove that you are good in that particular field if you score a very good mark in it? Is it "绝" aka "cruel" so important [at least it is important in my life]?

  Today was my friends' exam, all of them [2 diff course] having the same exam although diff sub, which is "Intro to Circuit Theory". Now i am so so nooby that i cant even answer a simple answer when they ask me. So one of them ask me:"Are you really from 3E?", now this add another question to me again, which i have to think through again. Let's get back to my first question, and the ans I would like to give is I am not sure i like 3E onot, but still clearly shown in my mind, the situation when I go register for Utar. I choose this sub because my father say engineering is good, and the whole name for 3E is damn damn long and cool [for me only maybe], so I just choose this and I get it. For me, I more prefer if my whole day assignment, job is just drawing, or thinking, but not studying how the flux go, how the current move, how to set condition for many many programming and etc. I just like to draw... something which is nice.

  Can an exam really show how "geng" you are in the field? Let say I get an "A" for this subject, mean I understand that subject? Mean I success cheat in exam[not me of cuz, i hate cheat in all kind of thing]? Or mean I am good in memorising answer?

  "绝", a word that never exist in my dictionary till these few days. In my dictionary, this word mean:

1. Won't feel pity when you see someone die in front of you [in exam]
2. Dare to reject people who ask you question about the sub that you are studying or studied [due to you will wasitng your time and end up you will dun have enough time to settle your own stuff]
3. You are you, I am still who am I. Dun care what you feel bout me, as long as I can save myself first
4. Won't take initiative to offer help anymore as it is kinda wasting time for me

  Now is it seems very selfish to you? Sometimes more selfish more better, oh yeah.

Impossible by Shontelle[edited version, laugh ba...]

Years ago I have been told
Life wasn't easy as I think
Caution needed to survive
I did, I did

You were genius I was not
I was nooby and idiot
I was careless , I forgot
I did
And now when all is come
I got nothing to say
You was right and so effortlessly
You might won
You can go ahead and tell all

Tell them i was streesful
Shout it from balcony
Write it on the facebook
All i believe gone now

Tell them I was "Happy"
and my heart was bleeding
all my scars are open
Tell them what i trust become
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible

Falling out from you is hard
Falling with stress is damn easy
Broken trust and confidence
I know, I did
Thinking what I need was there
Building faith on friend get worst
Empty promises, what I get
I know[I did]
And now when all settled
I got nothing to argue
and if you're done in give stress to me
Just go ahead by your own, tell all

Tell them I was emo
Tell them i was nooby
write it in my laptop
all thing is just nothing
Warn you I was happy
My heart can still breathing
All my scares are curing
If you think you won would be
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible

ooh impossible (oh yeah)

Years ago i have been told
Life wasn't easy as I think
Caution needed when come to it
I know

Tell you I was happy
Shout it from the clift side
Write it in my blog post
all I scare was nothing
Tell them I can survive
Stress is nothing to me
Wat I scare was nothing
Tell them what i hate would be
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
I were dying cuz of stress
Now I am here still survive
I can

How much can you save?