Everyone will have their own secret, maybe not much but there must be at least one. What i want to discuss is how seriously should you take when a person or your friend say that is a secret, or keep it as secret?
Things happened months ago, and i did ask to keep it as secret. Maybe that time when i say that it seems i am joking, but the sentence "Keep it as secret" did come out from my mouth, so what should you deal with it? Take it seriously or think maybe he just joking?
That time when i know you share it with some of those friends that both of us know, i might be alright with it. But as i stated in my first law, no people will have the same feeling for the same thing after time pass, even just one second. Mean i might think back at night and think that you should not did that to me?
No mood to write more now, hand pain cuz of playing cards. Sayonara and oyasuminasai.
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Saturday, December 18, 2010
So suddenly...
So suddenly, i am here again. Does not feel like want to take a nap, so i online a while and suddenly i found one thing, get some weird feeling again.
I will not state what problem is that, since as my labels stated, is kind of personal. What i want to say is, please be fair to me. I understand what you all worry and i am worrying bout the same thing as well, thus i will not give any comment about what ever decision you have made, but let me make something clear out here:
I will not state what problem is that, since as my labels stated, is kind of personal. What i want to say is, please be fair to me. I understand what you all worry and i am worrying bout the same thing as well, thus i will not give any comment about what ever decision you have made, but let me make something clear out here:
- Is always some people job when they already decide one thing, and they are the one who suppose to find the answer for it. He or she can actually make the answer without any further discussion with others, since is his or her own business. But for this case, i agree that he discuss with people.
- Why i am always the one who get ignored? Not because of i never join the discussion, but think back the very first time when we meet? I am the one responsible for all the decision from my friends, but actually it should not happened like that. Maybe you are the one who got contributions to reach the place first and etc, but dont you think it is hard for me to break my promise just because a discussion that you all have made without letting me know?
- Eveytime when i think a solution for the same problem occurs, you all will reject it. May i know why? Mean my solution is not a solution? Your solution is the one to be followed? i already break the promise at the first time, and maybe many times as well due to the unstandardize [dono how to spell] system that you all made.
- Last but not least, i still remember what happened at the first time. Honestly i am not angry or mad about it, since many years has passed. But, do pay attention to my solution sometimes. Don't ever judge a people that you and I not so close to, just by looking at the physical site.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Truth... or false !?
**This will definitely will be a long and bored one. And who those who might concern, just pm or sms me if you think I should not post this, although I din't post up your name...**
Recently saw a post from my fren, and realize she was having a not very happy life now. Well, i might can understand what she feels. Try and think of her situation. For me, although sometimes I say I don't mind, just let it be, i will not put too many hope into it again... and etc. But believe it or not, my heart, some part of it, still hoping that what I wish will come true. Is really annoying when you get alone while others were so happy, going out together, and they always promised you with something but never run into it. I felt quite "lonely" when reading the post, honestly I hope she can manage to cope with it. Some people might say add oil, you can do it... but we are not the ones who feel it, so does she or he really need that? I post a comment on her post, but not even a single minute after that, i found out her second post posting a thanks to her boyfren, appreciate him how he accompany her through phone and etc..
I faster delete the comment that i just posted. Not because of anything special [have to clarify since all my fren was crazy, some will say i like this girl, some will say i am a light bulb or etc... but honestly, treat you as fren...], but because I know her boyfren can help her for sue, plus i am emo at that particular moments, so better dun post a wrong thing. But i did a stupid move again, haha... i purposely sms her on the next day while her lunch time [guessing her lunch time...] and hope the few sms can help her pass through, since lunch time is the only time a worker can freely sms without scolded by big boss, lol. Well, what i want to clarify here is, look this situation in a different perspective, treat it as something which will make you feel better, that kind of sad feeling i almost have once a month is not something good... find some people who can trust and chat with them. Friends is always there when you ever need help...
As I mentioned above, fren always there when you need them. Now I am gonna post something which seems conflict with what i state. Yesterday my fren having a video call with my another group of frens, and from there can felt they are happy now. So my fren keep on saying how wonderful it is if I was the one with them now. What come into my mind that particular moment is:"The Law Of IF". People must always satisfied with what you have, no matter good or bad in order to make life simple and having a more happy life. Besides, good or bad can exchange quite fast if you manage to view it from other perspectives. Below is one example for the law which i think by myself:
You wake up in the morning, realize you were late to work. So you faster go prepare everything, but your heart keep telling yourself:"If i didn't watch movie till so late yesterday, i might even not going to rush like hell just like what am i doing now". Finally you done with it, you rush to office and you might scolded by boss, or you arrive at time but not very comfort since you sweats a lot. But did you ever think back, what will happened if you wake up early in that morning, but you will be the one in the car accident which you saw when you rushing to office just now. Life might not be as so "ngam ngam" as i said, and I am not telling you to forget what have you done mistake and find an excuse for it. Besides learning from what have you done wrong, think from others way to make you happy and more satisfied. Time passed cannot be earn back, so learn the lesson and use it on the future but not always lock yourself into it. "If" might sounds good in your mind but when in real time, will it go as smooth as what you think?
Another thing i want to mention. Call your family, your beloved one when ever you think of them, at least not once amonth to indicate you are caring of them. Life does not have so many 10 years as you wish, don't regret something when you come to it and use "if", as i mentioned "if" is not that "if" as you wish, think about it before you critique my post. Maybe I wrong all, but definitely, i am very sure there is sure something you might learn from it.
So emo now, and that's why a long post here. Just call me or inform me if you think this post already "hit" your privacy... and a very good morning to all of you. Ohaiyou Gozaimasu...
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Mind
Today was a day, Saturday but not a very normal day for me. As usual wake up in the morning, shower, boil water and etc, preparing for another training day. My site manager sit on my bed while I was having a relaxing shower, cause he want to use the bathroom too. I didn't realize that when I open the door, then I suddenly realize a black shadow sitting on my bed, staring at me. His face was too dark [0630 in the morning], but there is some light "shine" around his body shape [perimeter in math]. So I was shocked, but when he tell my others two friends, they all laugh at me. Oh my god...
Nothing special since than, till the time we are going back home from work, me and my friend was assigned to take some pictures from ADWB. Now i swear I didn't see any notice at the entering, and all the workers inside there was wearing safety shoes. So we go inside, take pictures. Suddenly when we want to go out, a main-con fatty sh*t ***** guy stand at the entrence, shouting at us:"KELUAR, TAK NAMPAR ORANG SUDAH COVER DENGAN SELIMUT KE?" So my friend and I was shocked, and we faster go out. My friend was a veyr nice guy, before he leaving, he turn around and say:"Bang, sorry ya, kami tak tau tak boleh pakai kasut masuk...", but the fatty **** ***** never accpet it, and say:"KELUAR, JANGAN BAGI SAYA TENGOK MUKA KAU ORANG LAGI!"
Now the thing I want to mention here is I am not angry or sad cause scolded, but the attitude of that fellow:
Nothing special since than, till the time we are going back home from work, me and my friend was assigned to take some pictures from ADWB. Now i swear I didn't see any notice at the entering, and all the workers inside there was wearing safety shoes. So we go inside, take pictures. Suddenly when we want to go out, a main-con fatty sh*t ***** guy stand at the entrence, shouting at us:"KELUAR, TAK NAMPAR ORANG SUDAH COVER DENGAN SELIMUT KE?" So my friend and I was shocked, and we faster go out. My friend was a veyr nice guy, before he leaving, he turn around and say:"Bang, sorry ya, kami tak tau tak boleh pakai kasut masuk...", but the fatty **** ***** never accpet it, and say:"KELUAR, JANGAN BAGI SAYA TENGOK MUKA KAU ORANG LAGI!"
Now the thing I want to mention here is I am not angry or sad cause scolded, but the attitude of that fellow:
- You always complain those sub-con never mention black and white to you, but in case all of them got. Now did you mention black and white, telling NO SHOE ALLOWED?
- We already say sorry to you, you just wont try to accept it. At least just calm down and advise us, that i can accept. You should not turn up your volumn and continue shouting. This not make us shame, but make yourself shame, what a barbarian.
- The most important thing is, it seems like he just scold person from our company...
Friday, October 29, 2010
Post
Title for today was post, so people who know me well will basically know that my post today will be very rojak post, mix all my feeling inside a single piece of post, how selling fish am i. For someone who does not like to read rojak ppost, you might skip it.
As usual, i think too much again. Today while dinner I suddenly think of so many thing, thing that have been past and thing that I think too much. People nowadays always think a lot, can say their curiousity is getting worst and worst. A person say he or she miss you due to long time no see, but you will think that he or she just say that to comfort you, or just say that for fun, as he got nothing to do, or even worst, he or she miss you because without you, no people can let them fool around.
Now, this few days I keep on repeating a same move, but i think no people will realize it unless he got nothing to do and steer at me for 24 hours. I keep on peep at my phone, hoping some one will call me no matter what thing he or she want to ask me. Already been here for bout 3 weeks or even one months, can't say so miss my family and fren, but just lonely. Everyday, many people will call my friend, but i was sitting there doing nothing and kinda jealous, why so many people will waste credit to blow water with them, but i am lonely there, smiling at them when they turn to look at me, with their phone besides their ear.
Last thing before i end my things, i am ok with what ever world give me, but this does not mean i am ok with all those stupid jokes in every single second. I believe myself is to bring hapiness to people, but not as a fooling tools for you all.
As usual, i think too much again. Today while dinner I suddenly think of so many thing, thing that have been past and thing that I think too much. People nowadays always think a lot, can say their curiousity is getting worst and worst. A person say he or she miss you due to long time no see, but you will think that he or she just say that to comfort you, or just say that for fun, as he got nothing to do, or even worst, he or she miss you because without you, no people can let them fool around.
Now, this few days I keep on repeating a same move, but i think no people will realize it unless he got nothing to do and steer at me for 24 hours. I keep on peep at my phone, hoping some one will call me no matter what thing he or she want to ask me. Already been here for bout 3 weeks or even one months, can't say so miss my family and fren, but just lonely. Everyday, many people will call my friend, but i was sitting there doing nothing and kinda jealous, why so many people will waste credit to blow water with them, but i am lonely there, smiling at them when they turn to look at me, with their phone besides their ear.
Last thing before i end my things, i am ok with what ever world give me, but this does not mean i am ok with all those stupid jokes in every single second. I believe myself is to bring hapiness to people, but not as a fooling tools for you all.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Shienji
Well, guess most of you will not understand what is the true meaning of my title today, maybe dun have this word also in the world. Initially plan to upload something kinda emo, sad and blue today, but thanks to some "Golden Treasure", teach me have to think positively.
Wake up in this morning without sleep back, just to search for some software and use it in this 2 and a half months, but end up I success found it, but my netbook resolution cannot support it. Is kind of dissapointing cuz my dream was full of it.
My friend tell me I was acting weird today, just because I done a few thing which i think is normal.
Few idea come into my mind, about create some game, plot of the game, character, story and etc... but too sad, I dont have the time to do it...I promise I will do one game that I like, according to my dream world and my true feel some day. Who ever want to share some idea with me, you are so welcome to do so, honestly and faithfully.
Wake up in this morning without sleep back, just to search for some software and use it in this 2 and a half months, but end up I success found it, but my netbook resolution cannot support it. Is kind of dissapointing cuz my dream was full of it.
My friend tell me I was acting weird today, just because I done a few thing which i think is normal.
- I suddenly scream in the office.
- I use a hammer and bang the table in the office.
- I cannot pay attention to what they all say while dinner time.
- I talk lesser than normal day.
Few idea come into my mind, about create some game, plot of the game, character, story and etc... but too sad, I dont have the time to do it...I promise I will do one game that I like, according to my dream world and my true feel some day. Who ever want to share some idea with me, you are so welcome to do so, honestly and faithfully.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Bored
I think I should not keep on uploading my internship dairy here, since some company have their own private and confidential stuff. This few days, day pass quite fast. Early in the morning wake up at 0630, fill in water for my intern roommates, then brush teeth, boil water, shower, eat breakfast at home, go site, come back and shower. After do something which is nothing, go to sleep, and this will loop for 6/7 days. What a boring life and routine is it. Of cause, site is not as bored as what you all think, except today.
My site manager got nothing to let me do today. What will you feel, if you sitting in a cabin, done nothing but others got things to do. Won't you feel useless? So here am I again to think too much. Why site manager does not have any task to give me? Basically i divide my answer to two section:
My site manager got nothing to let me do today. What will you feel, if you sitting in a cabin, done nothing but others got things to do. Won't you feel useless? So here am I again to think too much. Why site manager does not have any task to give me? Basically i divide my answer to two section:
- I done my work till site manager also feel frustrated to see my job. Everything he will ask from others trainee but not me, so is clearly show that others did a better job than me. My heart feel kinda sad and dissapointed with myself.
- Totally opposite wo 1., but i know it is impossible. You think I will do all perfectly and done my job so fast till site manager also does not have a task to give me?Impossible~~~ well, think of this song again.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Finally, it done...
Finally, i think you all can guess what am i trying to say... my exam finally finish. Oh yeah, but kinda disappointing to my exam answer. Well, never mind, what passed ald pass, look forward to the new come challenge. A kinda important thing i learn from this time exam is "Way of taigong Studying", lol, sounds so officially. I realize my way of studying is "Forcing but not to force, Stressful but not that stress". One of my friend told me something which i agree, if you know then mean you know, dono no matter how you force yourself also you still dono [with the criterion you have put effort into it when u study, only if that when you still dono can consider "dono"]. Confusing? Yup, kinda..
Today after exam found out my calculator missing some where, oh my god. Haiz, why so careless? Went for another sing K session, this time meet with some course-mates, friends and a lecturer. Wow, fantastic is it? Able to sing K with your lecturer, which mean lesser gap btw a student and a tutor. Not like in some place written:"Student are prohibited from entering", what for set a huge gap? You are lecturer or tutor, you sure got something more "geng" than us, but wat written make me feel that:"You are god, we are not"... frustrating!!
No picture for today post, cuz dun have lo. Before end my thing, list out something i wish to do in this next few months [internship time]
Today after exam found out my calculator missing some where, oh my god. Haiz, why so careless? Went for another sing K session, this time meet with some course-mates, friends and a lecturer. Wow, fantastic is it? Able to sing K with your lecturer, which mean lesser gap btw a student and a tutor. Not like in some place written:"Student are prohibited from entering", what for set a huge gap? You are lecturer or tutor, you sure got something more "geng" than us, but wat written make me feel that:"You are god, we are not"... frustrating!!
No picture for today post, cuz dun have lo. Before end my thing, list out something i wish to do in this next few months [internship time]
- Finish my noob car project, successfully [can move can d..lol]
- Finish my coding competition which i enter cuz wanna get a free T-Shirt
- Nihon-go wo benkyou shimasu [hope some of my friend can join vf me, learn together]
- Learn to release stress in the following three months
- maybe, just maybe, manage to create a simple RPG [maybe mean 1% nia]
- etc... cant think of now
Sunday, September 26, 2010
...
Well, I really dono what title should I put, since this is another rojak post. Before starting my mumbling again [is it call mumbling? some ppl if you have read and know the ans just pm me], congratz to all my friend who have done their Finals and gambatte kudasai for those who haven done, including me.
Read through some of my friend's post, found out some of them really like me, even have some same characteristic. Then I dono how to continue... I am not a person or human being who so pro in expressing my feeling via words..
What is all those circle about?
This is what come into my mind when I think friends. You see, different people have different characteristic, different color. Some might be near to you, just like the light blur ring and the green ring, but you will not ever have him or she to exist in your life. Some of you maybe is a friend of a group, just like yellow ring, but did any people accept them in their circle of life?
Lolx, like to show off that I always think of weird thing via picture above? Nah, this is wat really come into my mind. Hontoni! Friend can be as much as you like, but how many will become best friend. Best friend might can be many also, but how many will really understand you? If there exist some one who really understand you, even if you din't say a thing to him or she, no matter she or he is ur enemy or friend or wat ever, trust me, maybe is your luck to get a person like she or he. Mumbling again...
"没那么简单，就能找到聊的来得伴"
-Is not that easy to find a life being who can actually talk to you-
"子期..."
-Zi Qi...-
"知心者，何处寻"
-A person who really understand you, where to find?-
Read through some of my friend's post, found out some of them really like me, even have some same characteristic. Then I dono how to continue... I am not a person or human being who so pro in expressing my feeling via words..
What is all those circle about?This is what come into my mind when I think friends. You see, different people have different characteristic, different color. Some might be near to you, just like the light blur ring and the green ring, but you will not ever have him or she to exist in your life. Some of you maybe is a friend of a group, just like yellow ring, but did any people accept them in their circle of life?
Lolx, like to show off that I always think of weird thing via picture above? Nah, this is wat really come into my mind. Hontoni! Friend can be as much as you like, but how many will become best friend. Best friend might can be many also, but how many will really understand you? If there exist some one who really understand you, even if you din't say a thing to him or she, no matter she or he is ur enemy or friend or wat ever, trust me, maybe is your luck to get a person like she or he. Mumbling again...
"没那么简单，就能找到聊的来得伴"
-Is not that easy to find a life being who can actually talk to you-
"子期..."
-Zi Qi...-
"知心者，何处寻"
-A person who really understand you, where to find?-
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Double Kill
These few days keep on thinking am I taking a wrong subject? Wat is the purpose of exam? Is it exam really can prove that you are good in that particular field if you score a very good mark in it? Is it "绝" aka "cruel" so important [at least it is important in my life]?
Today was my friends' exam, all of them [2 diff course] having the same exam although diff sub, which is "Intro to Circuit Theory". Now i am so so nooby that i cant even answer a simple answer when they ask me. So one of them ask me:"Are you really from 3E?", now this add another question to me again, which i have to think through again. Let's get back to my first question, and the ans I would like to give is I am not sure i like 3E onot, but still clearly shown in my mind, the situation when I go register for Utar. I choose this sub because my father say engineering is good, and the whole name for 3E is damn damn long and cool [for me only maybe], so I just choose this and I get it. For me, I more prefer if my whole day assignment, job is just drawing, or thinking, but not studying how the flux go, how the current move, how to set condition for many many programming and etc. I just like to draw... something which is nice.
Can an exam really show how "geng" you are in the field? Let say I get an "A" for this subject, mean I understand that subject? Mean I success cheat in exam[not me of cuz, i hate cheat in all kind of thing]? Or mean I am good in memorising answer?
"绝", a word that never exist in my dictionary till these few days. In my dictionary, this word mean:
Today was my friends' exam, all of them [2 diff course] having the same exam although diff sub, which is "Intro to Circuit Theory". Now i am so so nooby that i cant even answer a simple answer when they ask me. So one of them ask me:"Are you really from 3E?", now this add another question to me again, which i have to think through again. Let's get back to my first question, and the ans I would like to give is I am not sure i like 3E onot, but still clearly shown in my mind, the situation when I go register for Utar. I choose this sub because my father say engineering is good, and the whole name for 3E is damn damn long and cool [for me only maybe], so I just choose this and I get it. For me, I more prefer if my whole day assignment, job is just drawing, or thinking, but not studying how the flux go, how the current move, how to set condition for many many programming and etc. I just like to draw... something which is nice.
Can an exam really show how "geng" you are in the field? Let say I get an "A" for this subject, mean I understand that subject? Mean I success cheat in exam[not me of cuz, i hate cheat in all kind of thing]? Or mean I am good in memorising answer?
"绝", a word that never exist in my dictionary till these few days. In my dictionary, this word mean:
- Won't feel pity when you see someone die in front of you [in exam]
- Dare to reject people who ask you question about the sub that you are studying or studied [due to you will wasitng your time and end up you will dun have enough time to settle your own stuff]
- You are you, I am still who am I. Dun care what you feel bout me, as long as I can save myself first
- Won't take initiative to offer help anymore as it is kinda wasting time for me
Impossible by Shontelle[edited version, laugh ba...]
Years ago I have been told
Life wasn't easy as I think
Caution needed to survive
I did, I did
You were genius I was not
I was nooby and idiot
I was careless , I forgot
I did
And now when all is come
I got nothing to say
You was right and so effortlessly
You might won
You can go ahead and tell all
Tell them i was streesful
Shout it from balcony
Write it on the facebook
All i believe gone now
Tell them I was "Happy"
and my heart was bleeding
all my scars are open
Tell them what i trust become
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
Falling out from you is hard
Falling with stress is damn easy
Broken trust and confidence
I know, I did
Thinking what I need was there
Building faith on friend get worst
Empty promises, what I get
I know[I did]
And now when all settled
I got nothing to argue
and if you're done in give stress to me
Just go ahead by your own, tell all
Tell them I was emo
Tell them i was nooby
write it in my laptop
all thing is just nothing
Warn you I was happy
My heart can still breathing
All my scares are curing
If you think you won would be
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
ooh impossible (oh yeah)
Years ago i have been told
Life wasn't easy as I think
Caution needed when come to it
I know
Tell you I was happy
Shout it from the clift side
Write it in my blog post
all I scare was nothing
Tell them I can survive
Stress is nothing to me
Wat I scare was nothing
Tell them what i hate would be
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
I remember years ago
I were dying cuz of stress
Now I am here still survive
I can
How much can you save?
Years ago I have been told
Life wasn't easy as I think
Caution needed to survive
I did, I did
You were genius I was not
I was nooby and idiot
I was careless , I forgot
I did
And now when all is come
I got nothing to say
You was right and so effortlessly
You might won
You can go ahead and tell all
Tell them i was streesful
Shout it from balcony
Write it on the facebook
All i believe gone now
Tell them I was "Happy"
and my heart was bleeding
all my scars are open
Tell them what i trust become
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
Falling out from you is hard
Falling with stress is damn easy
Broken trust and confidence
I know, I did
Thinking what I need was there
Building faith on friend get worst
Empty promises, what I get
I know[I did]
And now when all settled
I got nothing to argue
and if you're done in give stress to me
Just go ahead by your own, tell all
Tell them I was emo
Tell them i was nooby
write it in my laptop
all thing is just nothing
Warn you I was happy
My heart can still breathing
All my scares are curing
If you think you won would be
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
ooh impossible (oh yeah)
Years ago i have been told
Life wasn't easy as I think
Caution needed when come to it
I know
Tell you I was happy
Shout it from the clift side
Write it in my blog post
all I scare was nothing
Tell them I can survive
Stress is nothing to me
Wat I scare was nothing
Tell them what i hate would be
Impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible
I remember years ago
I were dying cuz of stress
Now I am here still survive
I can
How much can you save?Friday, September 17, 2010
Impossible~
Impossible, a song introduced by my fren to me when i go study with them. Long time did not write my blog due to a very common reason, which is lazy. Lazy can drag or even pull you down in many things, but sometimes it just become the most suitable way or a method for you to keep relax when you are emoing, which what am i feeling now. Found out that i am really have potential in mumbling[how to spell? watever again...], can relate a song to my feeling...
Wat happened in this sem might seems good actually but it is not in the fact or at the back of it. Assignment was coming as usual and as usual last minute work again except one particular assignment. This sem pay a lot for assignment work which is around 300 ald, haha, but end up all spoil one by one, or maybe mulfunction one by one.
There is one thing which i realize this sem, which i think i am actually more comfort in being alone, but is it? Assignment time i think all of you should know wat actually happened if you see my emoing wall post in facebook. Maybe it just seems like too irritating but at least this is wat i felt and at least i have to find a place to express it.
"Zi Qi" is wat i am searching now after i watch one movie by Lee Hom. Fren easy to find, easy to maintain relationship and etc, but zi qi is not. Fren can easily missing from your point of view or collapse from your list. Well, now i am feeling there is something around me, something taste lonely, something taste sad, something taste "impossible"..
Today was another exam which I feel i can get through it, at least not like others sub... this is a special sub for me. Honestly i dint pay too much effort in it but thing just arrange nicely, byte by byte in my memory register. My mind can actually work like a machine language when i see the assembly coding. Maybe it sounds too LCLY, but honestly, i dun wanna make any words or clarify anything that i wish to express, dump inside a deep hole due to dun want let HER sad or unhappy.
What for everytimes think bout others feeling while me myself might suffering from thinking all of this? Thing might seems like CASE A for you but for me maybe is CASE B. You won't know what i am actually feel when u feel something, agree? Well, at least 7 of them agree. So i will try to write what i feel now here, without any secret anymore... why? Dun ask... is not the "funny ans" for this ans anymore, cuz it is serious stuff.
Many of my fren say i am thinking too much, which i agree and i wont change that kind of characteristic of mine. Since the very first day of sem i already make my point of view very very clear [aka totemo clear..], dun come and borrow notes from me at the very last moment. Ya, i know i wont be using it at that particular moment, but cant u just come and borrow from me at least a week or a few days[aka 7 days] before it? It is quite annoying to hear this kind of asking permission question while i was studying, and you know i cant say No as easy as you all....
Next is the study method, from the first day of studying for this final i realise group study have a very marvelous magic. Learn better and more efficient way. But from there also, i found out that not all people suitable for group studying. If you see this and you feel maybe u are the one i am talking about, ok, i am fine with it. But before u angry or u wanna say some rude word to me, think deeply, am i simply "wat" you or is there is actually something wrongs going on? Think pls....
Start from that particular moment, I know i at least found some fren suitable for studying, after count, at least 4 come into my mind now... Maybe you feel angry that i did not invite you for the other group study, but here is the real reason which i want to share now:
Today when back, radio broadcasting a song- "Impossible" which suite my feeling, damn suit... impposible for me to get my dream marks for my dream sub. Impossible for others to understand me, impossible for other to think wat am i feeling now... Then after that song was another song, again introduced by the same group of fren again-"Love the way you lie", I wish I could be honest without lie, Just Say NO, but i dint, cuz SHE grab my hand while i was about to step out my first step, fren is hard than what i say just now, to maintain....
From the moment i reach home, i cant hear anything, but some water droping sounds, from no where. Lazy lazy till 1030pm, finally made up my mind go for shower session. At the shower room, feels that the air around is not cool, but kinda lonely cool... feel quite weird when thinking i might did some wrong move in past few days, which will cause my list getting shorter. Suddenly viewing point getting darker and darker... I know my eyes full of water at that time, or maybe i am too stress.... silly and quite "cold" ho, a big old man write something so girlish.
Nah, just dun think too much.... that is wat DARK tell me. Oh ya, thx to my fren who willing to share his knowledge vf me in my dream sub, without you i think i cant even pass 3 question today, although 80% of that is wrong[not confident, my characteristic...] and etc... I know maybe this is I am acting too fren to u, mean u are actually just know me and i just keep on walk around you acting like i know you for so long and you feel irritating.... but thx anywhere, I learn from many of you. Thanks for give me a first experience to overnight at fren house because of studying purpose, thanks for provide me some exp in studying and playing at the sametimes, thanks for everything and etc.... Next i would like to share a video clip, which of cuz from youtube and i own nothing of it.... Impossible by Shontelle
Wat happened in this sem might seems good actually but it is not in the fact or at the back of it. Assignment was coming as usual and as usual last minute work again except one particular assignment. This sem pay a lot for assignment work which is around 300 ald, haha, but end up all spoil one by one, or maybe mulfunction one by one.
There is one thing which i realize this sem, which i think i am actually more comfort in being alone, but is it? Assignment time i think all of you should know wat actually happened if you see my emoing wall post in facebook. Maybe it just seems like too irritating but at least this is wat i felt and at least i have to find a place to express it.
"Zi Qi" is wat i am searching now after i watch one movie by Lee Hom. Fren easy to find, easy to maintain relationship and etc, but zi qi is not. Fren can easily missing from your point of view or collapse from your list. Well, now i am feeling there is something around me, something taste lonely, something taste sad, something taste "impossible"..
Today was another exam which I feel i can get through it, at least not like others sub... this is a special sub for me. Honestly i dint pay too much effort in it but thing just arrange nicely, byte by byte in my memory register. My mind can actually work like a machine language when i see the assembly coding. Maybe it sounds too LCLY, but honestly, i dun wanna make any words or clarify anything that i wish to express, dump inside a deep hole due to dun want let HER sad or unhappy.
What for everytimes think bout others feeling while me myself might suffering from thinking all of this? Thing might seems like CASE A for you but for me maybe is CASE B. You won't know what i am actually feel when u feel something, agree? Well, at least 7 of them agree. So i will try to write what i feel now here, without any secret anymore... why? Dun ask... is not the "funny ans" for this ans anymore, cuz it is serious stuff.
Many of my fren say i am thinking too much, which i agree and i wont change that kind of characteristic of mine. Since the very first day of sem i already make my point of view very very clear [aka totemo clear..], dun come and borrow notes from me at the very last moment. Ya, i know i wont be using it at that particular moment, but cant u just come and borrow from me at least a week or a few days[aka 7 days] before it? It is quite annoying to hear this kind of asking permission question while i was studying, and you know i cant say No as easy as you all....
Next is the study method, from the first day of studying for this final i realise group study have a very marvelous magic. Learn better and more efficient way. But from there also, i found out that not all people suitable for group studying. If you see this and you feel maybe u are the one i am talking about, ok, i am fine with it. But before u angry or u wanna say some rude word to me, think deeply, am i simply "wat" you or is there is actually something wrongs going on? Think pls....
Start from that particular moment, I know i at least found some fren suitable for studying, after count, at least 4 come into my mind now... Maybe you feel angry that i did not invite you for the other group study, but here is the real reason which i want to share now:
- I am not god, i cant even help myself in some sub[micro p for exp], thus if u come might ruin up all my dreams
- Some give me a feeling that you wish me to tell you all what i know before you work on it, yup, sounds getting LC d is it
- Group study mean i am not the only one fellow in the study environment. There is other human being and not i dun wanna invite, but if i invite will they agree? Think from my turtle fur point of view which is kinda silly...lol
- Is not your fault 80%, is mine.... did you ever think of sometimes even if you are not the worst fellow, i dint invite u? Sure there is something and i think you are more clear than me, what i am trying to say here
Today when back, radio broadcasting a song- "Impossible" which suite my feeling, damn suit... impposible for me to get my dream marks for my dream sub. Impossible for others to understand me, impossible for other to think wat am i feeling now... Then after that song was another song, again introduced by the same group of fren again-"Love the way you lie", I wish I could be honest without lie, Just Say NO, but i dint, cuz SHE grab my hand while i was about to step out my first step, fren is hard than what i say just now, to maintain....
From the moment i reach home, i cant hear anything, but some water droping sounds, from no where. Lazy lazy till 1030pm, finally made up my mind go for shower session. At the shower room, feels that the air around is not cool, but kinda lonely cool... feel quite weird when thinking i might did some wrong move in past few days, which will cause my list getting shorter. Suddenly viewing point getting darker and darker... I know my eyes full of water at that time, or maybe i am too stress.... silly and quite "cold" ho, a big old man write something so girlish.
Nah, just dun think too much.... that is wat DARK tell me. Oh ya, thx to my fren who willing to share his knowledge vf me in my dream sub, without you i think i cant even pass 3 question today, although 80% of that is wrong[not confident, my characteristic...] and etc... I know maybe this is I am acting too fren to u, mean u are actually just know me and i just keep on walk around you acting like i know you for so long and you feel irritating.... but thx anywhere, I learn from many of you. Thanks for give me a first experience to overnight at fren house because of studying purpose, thanks for provide me some exp in studying and playing at the sametimes, thanks for everything and etc.... Next i would like to share a video clip, which of cuz from youtube and i own nothing of it.... Impossible by Shontelle
Monday, July 12, 2010
FIFA
Ok, I know is a bit weird to see I, old man actually post a post which is totally not related to me. Since when I start to enjoying myself in sport? If you know me well you will know this won't happened at all. Yesterday go watch FIFA Final due to a very stupid reason which is .... dun wanna tell you.
Went down there, sit still and learn a lot of thing besides learn how to shout "GOAL". First of all, damn many people, match start at 230am you will see 130 ald pack vf many sardin. Next is the people sitting around me. One geng is totemo funny, they "steal" the chair from next table and keep on say:" faster, no ppl will realise it... faster"... hey, you tot ppl around you all blind is it? This group of people is very bad. They smoke some weird smell smoke, besides that keep on ordering food and drinks in a nice manner. They ask the indian fellow come and order food, when about to done, they stop the indian fellow and add some more food. Then when food passing by, not theirs, they will shout like hell. So the fellow have no choice, have to take the food to their place. Then what happened? The geng will say :" just now ald say is fried rice not noodles." Hey, you all are the one shout like the food is urs and want the food now, now you blame people.
Fine, when food served, they say :" tot i say dun wan vege in my rice"... this make the indian kinda blur and ask some senior worker to come. Now guess what, they dint dare to voice out anything.... The most evil thing is after 90min, they just leave without pay.
Moral value here is, dun treat people as a fool. You need people to respect you also, but this can't be happened if you make ur self looks like an idiot. I know i have no right to say u all like idiot, but pls behave... some more say those player play like a "pondan". WTH, if you are damn pro ald playing the match now in Afrika, wat for sitting there and act like you are pro?
Second thing is, the referee. How to spell? Pls be honest with what are you doing and be responsible. Dun simply :"beep, yellow card". Open you eyes bigger. Maybe I am blur in the game since is my first time watching, but u can clearly see some of them is really funny de lo, not their fault u give yellow card, and "pity" those who lie down on floor because some ppl accidentally "kick" their leg... arghhh, thats why i dun like to see this kind of match.
Went down there, sit still and learn a lot of thing besides learn how to shout "GOAL". First of all, damn many people, match start at 230am you will see 130 ald pack vf many sardin. Next is the people sitting around me. One geng is totemo funny, they "steal" the chair from next table and keep on say:" faster, no ppl will realise it... faster"... hey, you tot ppl around you all blind is it? This group of people is very bad. They smoke some weird smell smoke, besides that keep on ordering food and drinks in a nice manner. They ask the indian fellow come and order food, when about to done, they stop the indian fellow and add some more food. Then when food passing by, not theirs, they will shout like hell. So the fellow have no choice, have to take the food to their place. Then what happened? The geng will say :" just now ald say is fried rice not noodles." Hey, you all are the one shout like the food is urs and want the food now, now you blame people.
Fine, when food served, they say :" tot i say dun wan vege in my rice"... this make the indian kinda blur and ask some senior worker to come. Now guess what, they dint dare to voice out anything.... The most evil thing is after 90min, they just leave without pay.
Moral value here is, dun treat people as a fool. You need people to respect you also, but this can't be happened if you make ur self looks like an idiot. I know i have no right to say u all like idiot, but pls behave... some more say those player play like a "pondan". WTH, if you are damn pro ald playing the match now in Afrika, wat for sitting there and act like you are pro?
Second thing is, the referee. How to spell? Pls be honest with what are you doing and be responsible. Dun simply :"beep, yellow card". Open you eyes bigger. Maybe I am blur in the game since is my first time watching, but u can clearly see some of them is really funny de lo, not their fault u give yellow card, and "pity" those who lie down on floor because some ppl accidentally "kick" their leg... arghhh, thats why i dun like to see this kind of match.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
About an old man...
Hello is me again. Since today got nothing to do, i am going to introduce myself here. Ohaiyo, I am known as mistindaforest here. I like to sit down alone and think something which is not important. Sometimes I might just sit down there thinking of something for a few hours and that is why my fren say i am wasting my time in those unnessasary thingy. Who knows? Maybe I actually getting something from what I think?
There is one thing i have to clarify, which is my face expression while I am in thinking mode. Well, normally include my mum will also blame me for that by saying:"Dun show your black face to others while you are not happy... you must learn how to control your emotion. Later when you go out for working people will not comfort with your facee and they might think you not agree with them...etc". So here i am now to clarify.
First of all, i am not that kind of person which can easily tell friends or even family what am i thnking. Normally even a best friend also I wont tell unless the person know by himself or herself. Yup, thats mean she or he really know me well and know what troublesome me at that particular moment. Like what i said:"Things not always get going with what you think." Sometimes maybe that person assume he or she know me well and keep on asking me to express my feeling out, if not i am the only one who will suffer. Sometimes thing is not as easy as that... maybe i think too much again or maybe I am the one who cannot let go something.Who knows?
Second thing is my black face. Normally when i am in thinking mode, my face does show black in color but it does not mean i am in a bad mood. I also cant change my expression while thinking something. So thats what happened. I show a black face while thinking,mum ask me what happened and i cant express my feeling out. Then she start to think I am angry with what she just said (cause normally i start to think am I doing wrong in something after she give advise...) and she will start to tell me the samething again. Nevermind, I already "biasa" with it.
Now lets continue with my next "isi". I agree that sometimes I am noob or kind (since both of it just "one line different" ). My fren said many times, I am too care with what my friend needs more than what i need. Sometimes i will feel like is it this the way i can be fren vf a fren? What is the definition of fren to me? I am not sure about it. Sometimes i feel noob. Actually what am i trying to write here?
One sentence still stay in my heart till now - "They find you not because of that but because of that..." Understand what am i trying to say? People always have their very funny excuse while wanna hide up something. I am angry with myself why should i angry with their excuse? Why dont just pretend I am that noob and what they say is true.
Two of my friend always said this to me:" Emo again? You dun have others things to do besides emoing? " Well, I am emo and did any laws saying I cannot emo? No. Maybe one of them think I should tell people so thati will not suffer much from it. But maybe I ald tell and you are not the one. After i tell i am still emo and you think i dun wanna tell people. Maybe just me, not all thing can tell frens, is it?
Another thing to clarify here. This few years I change my mind. Last time i used to tell people what they need and etc. But after all the situation i got, i change my mind. Why should I go "8" with those thing that not related to me and at the end get blamed cuz i am the one who tell some ppl the news? So listen carefully or see properly, I will only say out if you ask the correct question... need some example? Well, i wont so "8" to tell here.
Thanks for teaching me for so many thing. You, the one looking at this now, not you but "you". I know that i am too noob to teach people. I know you teach me a lot and I know you sometimes need me to teach back. I am not confidence as you. Sometimes i just sick of it. Not I dun wanna teach you but I dono how to teach and scare teach the wrong thing. Maybe you will feel I am so ego, so selfish. Only people teach me but not i teach them. I also know the law:" Teach people and you will learn more...", but again- Things not as easy as you think...
Times flow like what show above. Sometimes water might drop on sand and
the color of sand change darker. Water will absorbed by sand and change
color but for those who did not see properly, they cant distinguish the
different of color. For those who can distinguish, while you try to dry
it, what you hand trying to touch is just plain sand... as the water
will quickily dry out and not leave any shadow behind.
If got, only sand will know...
There is one thing i have to clarify, which is my face expression while I am in thinking mode. Well, normally include my mum will also blame me for that by saying:"Dun show your black face to others while you are not happy... you must learn how to control your emotion. Later when you go out for working people will not comfort with your facee and they might think you not agree with them...etc". So here i am now to clarify.
First of all, i am not that kind of person which can easily tell friends or even family what am i thnking. Normally even a best friend also I wont tell unless the person know by himself or herself. Yup, thats mean she or he really know me well and know what troublesome me at that particular moment. Like what i said:"Things not always get going with what you think." Sometimes maybe that person assume he or she know me well and keep on asking me to express my feeling out, if not i am the only one who will suffer. Sometimes thing is not as easy as that... maybe i think too much again or maybe I am the one who cannot let go something.Who knows?
Second thing is my black face. Normally when i am in thinking mode, my face does show black in color but it does not mean i am in a bad mood. I also cant change my expression while thinking something. So thats what happened. I show a black face while thinking,mum ask me what happened and i cant express my feeling out. Then she start to think I am angry with what she just said (cause normally i start to think am I doing wrong in something after she give advise...) and she will start to tell me the samething again. Nevermind, I already "biasa" with it.
Now lets continue with my next "isi". I agree that sometimes I am noob or kind (since both of it just "one line different" ). My fren said many times, I am too care with what my friend needs more than what i need. Sometimes i will feel like is it this the way i can be fren vf a fren? What is the definition of fren to me? I am not sure about it. Sometimes i feel noob. Actually what am i trying to write here?
One sentence still stay in my heart till now - "They find you not because of that but because of that..." Understand what am i trying to say? People always have their very funny excuse while wanna hide up something. I am angry with myself why should i angry with their excuse? Why dont just pretend I am that noob and what they say is true.
Two of my friend always said this to me:" Emo again? You dun have others things to do besides emoing? " Well, I am emo and did any laws saying I cannot emo? No. Maybe one of them think I should tell people so thati will not suffer much from it. But maybe I ald tell and you are not the one. After i tell i am still emo and you think i dun wanna tell people. Maybe just me, not all thing can tell frens, is it?
Another thing to clarify here. This few years I change my mind. Last time i used to tell people what they need and etc. But after all the situation i got, i change my mind. Why should I go "8" with those thing that not related to me and at the end get blamed cuz i am the one who tell some ppl the news? So listen carefully or see properly, I will only say out if you ask the correct question... need some example? Well, i wont so "8" to tell here.
Thanks for teaching me for so many thing. You, the one looking at this now, not you but "you". I know that i am too noob to teach people. I know you teach me a lot and I know you sometimes need me to teach back. I am not confidence as you. Sometimes i just sick of it. Not I dun wanna teach you but I dono how to teach and scare teach the wrong thing. Maybe you will feel I am so ego, so selfish. Only people teach me but not i teach them. I also know the law:" Teach people and you will learn more...", but again- Things not as easy as you think...
Times flow like what show above. Sometimes water might drop on sand andthe color of sand change darker. Water will absorbed by sand and change
color but for those who did not see properly, they cant distinguish the
different of color. For those who can distinguish, while you try to dry
it, what you hand trying to touch is just plain sand... as the water
will quickily dry out and not leave any shadow behind.
If got, only sand will know...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
不是我不明白
Many days passed and realise i am getting lesser and lesser to blog. No more pic for each blog post and etc... Sometimes thing just won't get that easy as what u think. Maybe you think i am so selfish, "lan ci" and act like i know all the thing u trying to ask,but do u ever think the thing behind it? People always think for their own good, what can they get from that particular time and people.... I am sick of it and i am not those that u think, just i dun have the ability to give u all wat you all needed... understand what i am trying to say now?
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Let's conclude
This two weeks holidays gonna end very soon, some happy with it some say not enough. What is in my mind now? Did i feel happy, satisfied? Or i feel not enough? Let's conclude what i had done in this two weeks...
First of all, play game. Ya, another Chinese RPG game known as The Twin Heros. I use about 3-4 days to finish it... maybe even less if minus time for sleep, shower, eat and etc. Then, watch tv of cuz. Suddenly feel interest about a HK drama which talking bout treasure.
The next few days, draw using paint again. This time the only different is i finally try to color it and try to draw hand, eyes and etc. Is hard to draw by using mouse since you can't get a circle although u are actually drawing a circle.
This is so call title pg. The cloud thingy quite hard to draw...
This is call "water ink draw" , lol... aka 水墨画. But too bad i dono how to color...
This is "Xiao Ying", she has a pity fate and...etc. I use the picture from chinese
paladin as a reference.
Back view of "Ming Yue". She also has a pity fate and a lot of curiousity...
Another reference from chinese paladin again.
This is so called sun set view. This is the most funny picture. Less draw but many color...
First of all, play game. Ya, another Chinese RPG game known as The Twin Heros. I use about 3-4 days to finish it... maybe even less if minus time for sleep, shower, eat and etc. Then, watch tv of cuz. Suddenly feel interest about a HK drama which talking bout treasure.
The next few days, draw using paint again. This time the only different is i finally try to color it and try to draw hand, eyes and etc. Is hard to draw by using mouse since you can't get a circle although u are actually drawing a circle.
This is so call title pg. The cloud thingy quite hard to draw...
This is call "water ink draw" , lol... aka 水墨画. But too bad i dono how to color...
This is "Xiao Ying", she has a pity fate and...etc. I use the picture from chinesepaladin as a reference.
Back view of "Ming Yue". She also has a pity fate and a lot of curiousity...Another reference from chinese paladin again.
This is so called sun set view. This is the most funny picture. Less draw but many color... I know all of it is weak art work but this is my first try... hope can come out vf own character soon. Besides these drawings is the video making which is a combination of all those picture above.
Last thing i did on Friday, i ... how to say 裹粽子 in EN? My mum cooks and i bungkus it...lol. No pictures cuz dun wanna let people laugh at me, cuz is not as beautiful as those sold outside.
Last thing i did on Friday, i ... how to say 裹粽子 in EN? My mum cooks and i bungkus it...lol. No pictures cuz dun wanna let people laugh at me, cuz is not as beautiful as those sold outside.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Think back...
This morning wake up, kinda emo~ing again. Think back a lot of things since last night. Primary school was kinda blur for me as I also cant remember clearly what had happened. There is a few things that I still can remember clearly. One of them is the homework given make me cant sleep before 12am everyday. Second thing is there was one guy called XXX, who suddenly announce to the whole class that :"He is a bad, dun fren with him...", the "he" and "him" was me. He point at me and announce to the whole class. Strangely, that particular moment I did not argue with him, I just let him continue with his announcement. Then there was one day, something happened and it was just like those story happened in drama. At last how was our friendship? Nah, I just cannot too close with my fren and thus, we most probably never become fren also... maybe this is what i thought.
Then I remember my secondary life. The memory is more clearer compared to primary life. When in form 2, there was one girl which is the monitor of the class suddenly choose me as the assistant. Will I just be what the teacher ask. Then my life as a monitor begin, start from assistant. Till form 3 i change position become monitor. I am not sure about that but my fren told me that the class teacher purposely ask me go take books from her place so that she can talk to the whole class about me. She talking bout something that.... erm, maybe can make me happy. But due to one reason, i resign from it and end my 2 years services, hahaha.
Since emoing, so you cannot expect this post will be all talking bout memory and think back, but maybe something still related to memory. Every teenage was happy to hang out with fren, go out maybe take a supper or travel to any places. But this definitely not gonna happened to me. Ya, i know i still go out supper sometimes. From "their" facebook pictures, it clearly shows that they are more knowledgeable than me, more talented than me and etc. I hate reunion because for me, that is a nightmare. First of all, all will have their gang of frens and what they chat about got "point". I know maybe is my fault cuz cannot mix well with them thats why thought that was a nightmare. But is that true? Now i even think back, I can still mix vf them in school but is that just limited to school area, mean after school period i am a totally different guy and cant mix with them at all? For me, reunion is some kind of gathering which to blow water and .... (dono how to express...)
Different people different thought. Sometimes i say dun care but is that true? I found out myself hardly to express what am I thinking. Ya, I admit that you all can know that i am angry at that moment based on my black face. Sometimes i will just keep on remember those bad memory and then keep those feeling deep in heart so "SHE" can read it... till I totally cannot take it anymore.... That was what my mum ask me to change:
Belief in what i believe and do what i belief....
Then I remember my secondary life. The memory is more clearer compared to primary life. When in form 2, there was one girl which is the monitor of the class suddenly choose me as the assistant. Will I just be what the teacher ask. Then my life as a monitor begin, start from assistant. Till form 3 i change position become monitor. I am not sure about that but my fren told me that the class teacher purposely ask me go take books from her place so that she can talk to the whole class about me. She talking bout something that.... erm, maybe can make me happy. But due to one reason, i resign from it and end my 2 years services, hahaha.
Since emoing, so you cannot expect this post will be all talking bout memory and think back, but maybe something still related to memory. Every teenage was happy to hang out with fren, go out maybe take a supper or travel to any places. But this definitely not gonna happened to me. Ya, i know i still go out supper sometimes. From "their" facebook pictures, it clearly shows that they are more knowledgeable than me, more talented than me and etc. I hate reunion because for me, that is a nightmare. First of all, all will have their gang of frens and what they chat about got "point". I know maybe is my fault cuz cannot mix well with them thats why thought that was a nightmare. But is that true? Now i even think back, I can still mix vf them in school but is that just limited to school area, mean after school period i am a totally different guy and cant mix with them at all? For me, reunion is some kind of gathering which to blow water and .... (dono how to express...)
Different people different thought. Sometimes i say dun care but is that true? I found out myself hardly to express what am I thinking. Ya, I admit that you all can know that i am angry at that moment based on my black face. Sometimes i will just keep on remember those bad memory and then keep those feeling deep in heart so "SHE" can read it... till I totally cannot take it anymore.... That was what my mum ask me to change:
- Stop keep all those unhappy thing in your heart
- Stop become a crazy guy who will suddenly become black face
- Stop become a person that will suddenly open up machine gun and shoot like there was no tomorrow
Belief in what i believe and do what i belief....Saturday, May 15, 2010
What the hack is inside my mind now? I just wanna type this blog yet i ald delete the whole paragraph for three times... arghhhhhhhhhhh..... my mind was totally blank yet wanna write something out.
Today can be consider as the third day after finish my finals. The very first day which is thursday, all my housemate ask me back hometown cuz dun wanna see my face (of cuz just joking, they just cannot see my happily smiling face showing that:"My final is the end, urs haven...kekeke...")
Sometimes i am thinking of a few question:
Before i end up my post today (cant consider as a post since, 不知所谓), i finally get my hp mini~~ wohoooo....
This is it but of cuz not this.... but this is it...
Today can be consider as the third day after finish my finals. The very first day which is thursday, all my housemate ask me back hometown cuz dun wanna see my face (of cuz just joking, they just cannot see my happily smiling face showing that:"My final is the end, urs haven...kekeke...")
Sometimes i am thinking of a few question:
- Am i too noob to help ppl?
- How i make frens?
- Why my frens need me?
- Do they need me?
- Why i am so noob?
- Why i am wasting my time?
- Why make thing getting complicated?
- Why a few pieces of paper can make people gone crazy?
- What are we studying for?
- etc... (you wont want me to type out all...)
Before i end up my post today (cant consider as a post since, 不知所谓), i finally get my hp mini~~ wohoooo....
This is it but of cuz not this.... but this is it...Saturday, May 8, 2010
KO 4
Finally have time to take a good nap since week 7 of this sem, as my next paper is on thursday. What am i doing in this whole week was too simple, sleep at morning about 3am, study and try to memorize all the formula, end up no enough time when exam due to 2 hour 4 Q with sub-sub-sub question system.
Lets talk one by one. Micro was consider ok, since i also forget how sucks am i in the exam d. I remember i was just sitting there, try to do as fast as i can. I remember come out tutorial question and some question from the test. So, basically this exam just hanging 1/4 way.
Next is my favourite subject, Control system. This is just wonderful. This is the subject i manage to teach people, omg. I aim A or maybe B for this subject. What happened was i shooted by the value of alpha, beta and p. Use almost 1 hour to escape from shooted. End up this question i din't manage to finish it although i have use 1 hour. Then stop by another people call bode plot which i think was another idiot move done by me. What for go and wasting time on those question that seems unfamiliar with me. At the end very dissapointed, the last Q was easy but i dun have time to do it... how sad...
Next is digital. This time i learn a lesson, answer damn fast without caring too much on how beautiful is my writing and how straight was my table. End up just enough time to do it... Many table (unnecessary de) was drew and arr.......it consider fully utilize my time...
Today one was the best. Best among the best... This is the first ever subject that i am able to vommit out whole new formula. See how pro am i? It need a lot of formulas and you know i am not good in memorizing unless in something i really like, so rather than wasting time, i create formula. I was very happy cuz i can eventually come out about 10 new formula in that 2 hours...lol. One of the question, i laugh while i was creating the formula....kakaka...
Hope i can survive in the next paper....hope.....
This is one of the ans that i write and laugh all the time... I know you wanna laugh,
just laugh....but see how "sky soldier" am i at that particular moment?
Lets talk one by one. Micro was consider ok, since i also forget how sucks am i in the exam d. I remember i was just sitting there, try to do as fast as i can. I remember come out tutorial question and some question from the test. So, basically this exam just hanging 1/4 way.
Next is my favourite subject, Control system. This is just wonderful. This is the subject i manage to teach people, omg. I aim A or maybe B for this subject. What happened was i shooted by the value of alpha, beta and p. Use almost 1 hour to escape from shooted. End up this question i din't manage to finish it although i have use 1 hour. Then stop by another people call bode plot which i think was another idiot move done by me. What for go and wasting time on those question that seems unfamiliar with me. At the end very dissapointed, the last Q was easy but i dun have time to do it... how sad...
Next is digital. This time i learn a lesson, answer damn fast without caring too much on how beautiful is my writing and how straight was my table. End up just enough time to do it... Many table (unnecessary de) was drew and arr.......it consider fully utilize my time...
Today one was the best. Best among the best... This is the first ever subject that i am able to vommit out whole new formula. See how pro am i? It need a lot of formulas and you know i am not good in memorizing unless in something i really like, so rather than wasting time, i create formula. I was very happy cuz i can eventually come out about 10 new formula in that 2 hours...lol. One of the question, i laugh while i was creating the formula....kakaka...
Hope i can survive in the next paper....hope.....
This is one of the ans that i write and laugh all the time... I know you wanna laugh,just laugh....but see how "sky soldier" am i at that particular moment?
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Huat arrr
Huat arr~~~~ not related to my topic today but some how this is the title for today. Talking craps? Yup, today label is talking craps plus some minor personal thinking~
First of all, some people comment in some site that his friend who go argue that test got people copy answer. He comment his fren as "mental got problem"~ Now what is happening around the world? First of all, what is test ? Why it set? For what purpose? The answer from the student now most propably will be to test how strong is your copy skill when test without let lec see it! OMG~~~ test is made to test ourselves on how far we know the subject and how far we understand it, but not just sit there, use a large angle of departure and copy answer in 522 mode. Maybe my thinking is wrong, test is made to copy only. Maybe i am still live in the ancient time where cannot copy in exam just plug into my head~~~ what ever, grammer sucks but honestly, no one sitting besides me now which i can copy grammer.
About the stream**, lazy to talk bout it. One conclusion about 100, you call just to argue everything you hate and hear a "sorry, i also cannot do anything, sorry sir" from the operator without solving your problem. 8 counters in ** point is just to tell you diff story. Want an example? Just try yourself by asking each of them the same question. I swear, you will get minimum 2 diff answer.
This few days i was quite happy. Why? Cuz my cough not stoping, my flu come come and come like water pipe, and my homework press press press and press!!!! Arghhhhhh, WTW with me, more stress more happy? Conclusion, i am noob and i am crazy~~~~
Talk back something about huat. Anybody know what is huat ge? Is in hokien. Hakka is fat gao... mandrin is fa gao, cantonese is fat gou~~~~ dont ask me in japanese is what? All i can answer you is wakarimasen aka わかりません. I make this kuih togather with my aunt on last sunday and it was nice... lol~ cuz i make de~~~kekekeke
Last but not least, Huat arrr, dai ge huat arrr~~~
Eat before?
First of all, some people comment in some site that his friend who go argue that test got people copy answer. He comment his fren as "mental got problem"~ Now what is happening around the world? First of all, what is test ? Why it set? For what purpose? The answer from the student now most propably will be to test how strong is your copy skill when test without let lec see it! OMG~~~ test is made to test ourselves on how far we know the subject and how far we understand it, but not just sit there, use a large angle of departure and copy answer in 522 mode. Maybe my thinking is wrong, test is made to copy only. Maybe i am still live in the ancient time where cannot copy in exam just plug into my head~~~ what ever, grammer sucks but honestly, no one sitting besides me now which i can copy grammer.
About the stream**, lazy to talk bout it. One conclusion about 100, you call just to argue everything you hate and hear a "sorry, i also cannot do anything, sorry sir" from the operator without solving your problem. 8 counters in ** point is just to tell you diff story. Want an example? Just try yourself by asking each of them the same question. I swear, you will get minimum 2 diff answer.
This few days i was quite happy. Why? Cuz my cough not stoping, my flu come come and come like water pipe, and my homework press press press and press!!!! Arghhhhhh, WTW with me, more stress more happy? Conclusion, i am noob and i am crazy~~~~
Talk back something about huat. Anybody know what is huat ge? Is in hokien. Hakka is fat gao... mandrin is fa gao, cantonese is fat gou~~~~ dont ask me in japanese is what? All i can answer you is wakarimasen aka わかりません. I make this kuih togather with my aunt on last sunday and it was nice... lol~ cuz i make de~~~kekekeke
Last but not least, Huat arrr, dai ge huat arrr~~~
Eat before?Sunday, March 28, 2010
Sister, bro and I
Go back every weekend hope for a relaxing environment for studying but everytimes turn out hear them qurrel about this and that, which is the thing that i hate the most. Let's dont talk bout this, my sister currently studying in primary school and you know, she sure will ask me some primary question. This is what will happened eveytime when she ask me, i will become impatient cuz i will think that this question is damn easy and you dono....!!! Then she will keep silent for a while and when i look at her, i will feel pity and teach her again with a very impatient mood when i see the question again. This continue loop, i see her face, teach her, end up impatient.
Sometimes i will think back, ya is true is easy to me but for her, it maybe too taugh. Think back that time when i was in primary, any people can teach me? No! The ansewr is NO! No one will teach me and my sis can consider lucky as she got two bro to teach her, but me ? My brother will have me to teach him (of cuz, impatient teaching again...), but me? Have to try help them as much as i can... as much as i can when i am still here...
But one thing quite funny happened is when she ask me bout drawing or decoration thingy, i will teach her with patient~~~ WTW, what happened to me again? This time i suddenly think of, is it i choose a wrong course again? I think i should rethink this thingy very deeply, deeply...
I like to draw...am i choosing a wrong course?
Sometimes i will think back, ya is true is easy to me but for her, it maybe too taugh. Think back that time when i was in primary, any people can teach me? No! The ansewr is NO! No one will teach me and my sis can consider lucky as she got two bro to teach her, but me ? My brother will have me to teach him (of cuz, impatient teaching again...), but me? Have to try help them as much as i can... as much as i can when i am still here...
But one thing quite funny happened is when she ask me bout drawing or decoration thingy, i will teach her with patient~~~ WTW, what happened to me again? This time i suddenly think of, is it i choose a wrong course again? I think i should rethink this thingy very deeply, deeply...
I like to draw...am i choosing a wrong course?
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